kuro no yōsei

[ornitier199]

i thought i was okay being alone even preferred it but i dont between the self harm and contant pain
this is stupid im not gonna even finish the sentence.

now i get what you meant what you said last year, alex, yet i still haven't done it even with all the methods. i really am just a slug, a parasite my own mother should've aborted.
i just wish i could get caught in the line of fire or somethign be killed by a killer shouldnt be too hard to do in these parks, but knwoign my luck id still manage to come out of alive.
so whats its gonna take for me to die already? two years later and this slug myself still hasn't killed himself. im not worthy of even being a friend being alive just prologs the suffering ever time i try everything i can to deny it. he was right OK?
i know alot of people here hate my pathetic existence too considering the parasite i am.
like watching some horror movie and wishing the one dying was me. i wouldn't run i'd welcome it. guess i should start wandering but wayward in hopes to run across my death someway.

 

[waran22]

self harm is the mirror of how youve been treated from society

the problem is: no one cares (i do - but the torture to me continues every day - so i cant help - and the people who are able to dont - a real government/society-failure)

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide really is so difficult after all and I wish that there was a way to fall asleep and never wake without having to go through the process of ctb. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much and I understand being desperate to leave. To me, it is so horrifying that life even is a thing in the first place. Existence is so unnecessary and I wish that I was never born. I wish you the best and I hope that you find relief from your pain.