Venting Kinda want to stay alive a little longer to see what El Niño does

[Endstati0n]

I've planned on CTBing in a couple of months, but since next years summer will be fucking crazy to say the least, i kinda want to postpone it to see it happen.

I'm also afraid of failing my attempt if i'm being honest. I guess having 0 friends and 0 happieness in my life makes me suicidal but it's not enough to ignore the fear of failing.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

The fear of failure is a very real and valid fear to have so it's understandable. I'm really only staying alive for my addictions, despite the trauma and health issues I have, but when I lose interest in my addictions I'm done. I will try to come up with something peaceful when I can, but it may be difficult to get something like that, especially now compared to a few years ago when getting Nembutal and SN was much easier.

It's so stupid that peaceful methods to escape life with can't just be over the counter at every pharmacy, but too many people in this world are Forced Life assholes and I hate those kinds of people. If it weren't for them, people like us wouldn't have a fear of failure, because the peaceful methods would be easy to use and the success rate for people who don't want to live could be extremely high.

 

[Endstati0n]

The fear of failure is a very real and valid fear to have so it's understandable. I'm really only staying alive for my addictions, despite the trauma and health issues I have, but when I lose interest in my addictions I'm done. I will try to come up with something peaceful when I can, but it may be difficult to get something like that, especially now compared to a few years ago when getting Nembutal and SN was much easier.

It's so stupid that peaceful methods to escape life with can't just be over the counter at every pharmacy, but too many people in this world are Forced Life assholes and I hate those kinds of people. If it weren't for them, people like us wouldn't have a fear of failure, because the peaceful methods would be easy to use and the success rate for people who don't want to live could be extremely high.

Same here. Drugs can really extend your life for some people

 

[90377lethe]

I live in a place that has high potential for catastrophic weather. I've been feeling like, if I don't CTB it might be time to move in the next year.

 

[Endstati0n]

I live in a place that has high potential for catastrophic weather. I've been feeling like, if I don't CTB it might be time to move in the next year.

Very reasonable. I feel like if catastrophies dont get you, the heat will, and in my country almost no one is allowed to have AC. This summer i was being cooked holy shit

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

Based, and I could get on board with doing this too

 

[helena.]

I feel the opposite. I'm dreading next year's El Nino. 49C heat was bad enough this year, I cannot imagine how much worse next year could be