Once I accepted that I would ctb within a month, I started doing all the things I had always wanted to do, and it almost seemed like a life worth the living. And then I was like oh hey, maybe I shouldn't kill myself, but as soon as I realized I would have to stay alive and be stuck in my situation, it all fell apart and I fell even farther into darkness. It's a nice little twisted paradox; I can either be happy and about to die or painfully alive. I feel bad that I was never able to recover but I have tried so hard
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- Aug 10, 2020
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i thought i was the only one who felt this way. i guess knowing my death is near gives me the motivation to do all the things i hadn't gotten around to doing.
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- Aug 31, 2020
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I've gone through the same paradox, I'm really trying to force myself out of that limbo and I hope to die at my ctb date, but, who knows. Maybe my emotions will suddenly change again.Similar threads
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