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pika401

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I've always thought that catching the bus while I'm struggling through college would be a terrible idea. It feels like I'd just be remembered as someone who gave up instead of someone who worked hard and achieved something. School has been hell for me, and part of me thinks that if I ctb like the day after graduating, people would at least know I'd reached a major milestone first, and yet I was still determined enough to die even after succeeding. thoughts?
 
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Lost in a Dream

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I don't know if you've heard of a podcast called The Right to No Longer Exist before, but they once had an episode where they talked about a sports announcer who lived a great life, accomplished all their goals, and at the end still chose to exit this life because they did everything they wanted and didn't want to experience whatever future suffering life could inflict on them.

I say if you want to graduate and then end your life, I wish you the best of luck in accomplishing this. Just remember though, how you define success is all that matters, not what other people think it means.
 
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I've always thought that catching the bus while I'm struggling through college would be a terrible idea. It feels like I'd just be remembered as someone who gave up instead of someone who worked hard and achieved something. School has been hell for me, and part of me thinks that if I ctb like the day after graduating, people would at least know I'd reached a major milestone first, and yet I was still determined enough to die even after succeeding. thoughts?
Well maybe news possibilites once graduated no?
 
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I don't know if you've heard of a podcast called The Right to No Longer Exist before, but they once had an episode where they talked about a sports announcer who lived a great life, accomplished all their goals, and at the end still chose to exit this life because they did everything they wanted and didn't want to experience whatever future suffering life could inflict on them.

I say if you want to graduate and then end your life, I wish you the best of luck in accomplishing this. Just remember though, how you define success is all that matters, not what other people think it means.
Do you know the name of the specific episode of the podcast? It sounds like something I would enjoy listening to.

OP, I think it is absolutely up to you. If you think after graduation is the right time for you to ctb then it is. Although personally I wouldn't care too much about what other people think of me and even less so, if I am not around anymore.
 
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Do you know the name of the specific episode of the podcast? It sounds like something I would enjoy listening to.
I don't remember which episode it was unfortunately. Guess I could always listen to them all over again and find out because it is a great podcast. The best one ever in my opinion.
 
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I don't know if you've heard of a podcast called The Right to No Longer Exist before, but they once had an episode where they talked about a sports announcer who lived a great life, accomplished all their goals, and at the end still chose to exit this life because they did everything they wanted and didn't want to experience whatever future suffering life could inflict on them.

I say if you want to graduate and then end your life, I wish you the best of luck in accomplishing this. Just remember though, how you define success is all that matters, not what other people think it means.
thanks a lot for this information! you're right about how is should define my own success, but i always wanted to do something that doesn't match my personality and try to die cool for once
Well maybe news possibilites once graduated no?
that is something i thought, i wouldnt know whay the future is like but the school as fcked me up so bad i dont even want to know what could possibly in the future. the only thing stopping me from catching the bus right now is the fact that i want to die in a cool way by dying after graduating...
 

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