Just started planning my legal/financial affairs

[SofterSoftest]

I'm going to appoint my bank as executor of my estate (I know, they take money, but I really don't want to leave this headache with my family). I just started this process and all of a sudden it feels so much more real. I don't feel sad right now... I feel a mix of relief and surprise. After I appoint my executor, I'm going to draft and finalize my will, and then purchase cremation services.

I feel like I'm constantly lying/deceiving, because my loved ones often talk to me about the future, and I just play along at this point because I've already tried to explain a couple of times that I'd like to CTB and everyone thinks I'm temporarily going through a hard time. I do get it - I can only imagine how hard it is for them to hear me talk so openly about CTB, but I just wish I didn't have to put up a false front so often. I'm just tired and want this to be over, as much as I am also heartbroken at the idea of hurting people I love.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. It can be tiring having to pretend in front of others when in reality you do not want to be here. I do wish we lived in a world where suicide is not so stigmatised and people can talk openly about this topic. I wish you the best.

 

[Lost Magic]

I am in the process of doing the same thing. I will also appoint the bank as my executor but I will be leaving most of my money to charities because I really don't have any family left. Best wishes!

 

[Crazy4u]

You are very considerate. Don't worry about the lies. I have been lying and smiling the entire day. What else can we do?

I wish you the best.