Venting just so tired

[lucid]

this constant cycle of a short burst of happiness only to come back to reality for the longer period is wearing me the fuck out and i really can't deal with it.
i wake up, sit on my pc most of the day, play every single game i can think of that i won't get tired of after 5 seconds even though i still do, lie in my bed, think about how lonely i am and how much i wish i had someone to hold me but no one would want to because broken depressed messes who can't even take care of their own body are gross and disgusting, sleep, wake up and it just goes on.
i'm so fucking tired of everything, even coming here just to spill my mind onto a fucking post only to leave and then come back and do the same thing over and over. everythign is so fucking repetitive and i can't take it i wish i could just snap my fingers and not exist i can't fucking bare it anymore

 

[hankbank3928]

I feel very similar. Everyday is very repetitive and boring to me.

 

[Al Cappella]

I've got the same thing going, and it's just royally shitty. I would so love to be able to take people's pain away, even for just a little while. Urgh…

 

[ikadasui]

It is beyond a nightmare. To think I have to endure all of this for no other reason then two selfish fucks wanted 5minutes of fun is constantly mind boggling to me.

 

[Of The Universe]

I feel very similar. Everyday is very repetitive and boring to me.

Yep!!!

 

[soldier]

Me too I felt the same.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am also tired of everything, all I want is to peacefully pass away and be free from this existence. Everything seems repetitive to me as well, I have no interest in living. My life is just pointless suffering. I'm sorry you are going through this. I know that it can be dreadful to live a miserable existence. I wish you the best.