Just ordered my SN

[justagreenleaf]

Thanks to a really kind member on this site (you know who you are—I wasn't sure if you wanted to be named) I just ordered my SN...
I can't stress enough the feeling of absolute calm and ecstatic joy it just gave me to press "order". I haven't felt this—truly—happy in months.

I am crossing my fingers that nothing goes wrong with shipping/delivery. However, I'm confident things will go well considering others have ordered from that source in the past. I'm on a cloud. I could type all day.

I might still order N based on how I feel—at this point if it doesn't get delivered/lost or I get a visit from LE it doesn't matter, because I have an alternative that is at least somewhat peaceful and doesn't leave me considering atrocious alternative methods. I even have a wholesome goodbye note for my care team with me... Well most of it, I'm still editing it as I write this.

Please please please pray for me that things go well I really need this so much

 

[zolbant]

Hi I have been searching for sn, do you have a reliable source?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel calm. I know that for many people it can be a relief having a way out of this horrible life for when the time is right for them. I hope that things go the way you want them to.

 

[justagreenleaf]

I understand why you would feel calm. I know that for many people it can be a relief having a way out of this horrible life for when the time is right for them. I hope that things go the way you want them to.

Thank you for understanding. I really hope I don't suffer too much during those last moments.