Just got off the phone with my dad, he is trying to distract with vacations. Can't accept my desire to ctb.

[heretogethelp]

I AM SO DAMN ANGRY!!!
He said if I kill myself, I am selfish & he'll never recover. Neither will my mother. But, I'm 21.
IT'S MY LIFE SO I CAN DECIDE!!!

 

[FuneralCry]

The way I see it, we never asked to exist so we have no obligations to stay alive. Expecting us to suffer for decades against our wishes is the thing that is selfish. As you said, it's your life, so it is up to you when you decide to end it and nobody else has any say in that.

 

[ClownMe]

I'll never understand why people have kids and then not even care when they have suicidal thoughts, I know the feeling first hand with my parents and it's beyond frustrating. It's a slap in the face because they're literally the reason im struggling with life... because they're the ones that chose to give birth to me. I hope things work out for you, whatever you choose to do.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Can you get on some calming meds to at least chill for a while?

 

[everydayiloveyou]

But it's true, losing a loved one is very traumatic, especially when it's your own child.

In this day and age, it's really unrealistic to expect that your loved ones will be open to this kind of news and want to support and/or encourage you. No parent wants to think that their child is struggling so much that they think about making this kind of decision. It brings up a lot of feelings of guilt, shame, worry, etc...

ultimately it's all up to you and it's your life. But even elderly people dying of cancer who are eligible for legal euthanasia need to deal with backlash from their family.