meowpuppy
valerie | she/they | puppygirl
- Jul 11, 2026
- 391
just gonna mark as NSFW in case i wanna talk more about my hypersexuality. this is just off the cuff..
i have literally no method, woe is me, i'm suffering, yada yada. i've said this before, everybody has, really. sorry this vent isn't going to be too, uh, interesting, compared to what everybody else is saying or has said. i have to cut the people around me off early before i hurt them or they hurt me because i'm just too abrasive. i'm too much for most people, i'm too sweet sometimes, but i'm too cold other times, i can't even stop my own desires from ruining everything, i hate being hypersexual, i hate lusting so much, i hate how all my kinks and fetishes and shit will always be excluded from society because of the ways we view sex. i just want peace, love and bread, how hard can that be? how is it that every time i just want even the slightest scrap of love i'm just going to be pushed away? i hate this, i hate everything. i'm not even a good girl, i'm not even feminine, i don't even emulate a dog that well, how can i call myself a puppygirl? like, i can count right now, i've been responsible for ruining like, 10 relationships, in just two years, and for nearly one and a half of those two years i didn't even talk to anybody! i'm tired of constantly having to justify my existence through the condition of self-improvement, if only i could make my self better, then finally i'd stop lashing out. maybe, maybe, if i just keep doing menial emotional labour for weeks and replicate all the necessary social codes i'll be loved. it's also great how much i'm victim blamed..
anyways i guess this is all to say that i'm open to manipulation and grooming!! feel free to manipulate and groom me!! look at how vulnerable i am to any showing of love, not because of my lack of "self-love" (a thing i don't even believe is a cogent concept), but because of how little anybody, really, nobody at all, because i have no friends and no family i feel storge towards, in my life cares about me!!
i have literally no method, woe is me, i'm suffering, yada yada. i've said this before, everybody has, really. sorry this vent isn't going to be too, uh, interesting, compared to what everybody else is saying or has said. i have to cut the people around me off early before i hurt them or they hurt me because i'm just too abrasive. i'm too much for most people, i'm too sweet sometimes, but i'm too cold other times, i can't even stop my own desires from ruining everything, i hate being hypersexual, i hate lusting so much, i hate how all my kinks and fetishes and shit will always be excluded from society because of the ways we view sex. i just want peace, love and bread, how hard can that be? how is it that every time i just want even the slightest scrap of love i'm just going to be pushed away? i hate this, i hate everything. i'm not even a good girl, i'm not even feminine, i don't even emulate a dog that well, how can i call myself a puppygirl? like, i can count right now, i've been responsible for ruining like, 10 relationships, in just two years, and for nearly one and a half of those two years i didn't even talk to anybody! i'm tired of constantly having to justify my existence through the condition of self-improvement, if only i could make my self better, then finally i'd stop lashing out. maybe, maybe, if i just keep doing menial emotional labour for weeks and replicate all the necessary social codes i'll be loved. it's also great how much i'm victim blamed..
anyways i guess this is all to say that i'm open to manipulation and grooming!! feel free to manipulate and groom me!! look at how vulnerable i am to any showing of love, not because of my lack of "self-love" (a thing i don't even believe is a cogent concept), but because of how little anybody, really, nobody at all, because i have no friends and no family i feel storge towards, in my life cares about me!!
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