just done.

[halcyon]

i've lost every single person that was ever important to me.

my best friend abandoned me yesterday. i lost my ex girlfriend 2 months ago. i'm done trying. i've tried so hard, i've fought so hard for so long. and i'm just tired. i haven't gotten out of bed since he left me. i don't want to. sometimes i wish the ground could open up and swallow me whole. i don't want to live anymore. i'm tired of living. i'm tired of experiencing the same pain over and over, tired of being abandoned when all i want is to be close to someone.

i'm always the bad guy. i'm always the bad guy it seems. why don't i deserve compassion in the ways i've given it to other people? why does everyone want to be away from me?

 

[Sittichmutter]

You are deeply depressed and in pain. I do not know what happened between you and your girlfriend or you and your best friend.
Please, look for a therapist. He may be helpful for you.
I wish you feel better.
Feel lovely hugged from a stranger

 

[Lost Magic]

i've lost every single person that was ever important to me.

my best friend abandoned me yesterday. i lost my ex girlfriend 2 months ago. i'm done trying. i've tried so hard, i've fought so hard for so long. and i'm just tired. i haven't gotten out of bed since he left me. i don't want to. sometimes i wish the ground could open up and swallow me whole. i don't want to live anymore. i'm tired of living. i'm tired of experiencing the same pain over and over, tired of being abandoned when all i want is to be close to someone.

i'm always the bad guy. i'm always the bad guy it seems. why don't i deserve compassion in the ways i've given it to other people? why does everyone want to be away from me?

People are complicated and difficult at the best of times. Try not to be too hard on yourself. I feel your pain mate.

 

[Sea Turtle]

Losing people you care about is the most heart wrenching feeling ever.. you do deserve compassion. I wish you the best

 

[CameronFrye]

I'm sorry man, I feel your pain I also lost my ex girlfriend 2 months ago as well. The cold winter months have been brutal. And all my friends have left me over the past few years as well. Words can't describe the pain, and I hope we both find a way to get out of it and find the compassion we are looking for. I just got a puppy to help with the loneliness. It's not the same as human compassion, but it's still helps a lot to have something that shows you compassion without question.

 

[Hurt]

I understand. We fight our thoughts all the time and it's exhausting. We are tired everyday and that feeling is frustating. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in so much pain. I can imagine that it must be devastating losing people. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best.