Just cried my ass off

[September5th]

3AM, I'm working on a project I simply could not touch up until this point (because of depression and stuff) and I'm crying like there's no tomorrow. Just wanted to puke that into the world. The pain and loneliness I'm feeling right now are all my fault. I took everything good that happened to me last year and threw it on the trash. My immaturity fucked up the hole thing and I hurted others. I'm going to rotten alone because of my own fucking decisions. I wish life was unfair, so I could blame it, but it isn't (at least for me). Life is fair as fuck and that's why I'm here, crying everyday, not being able to basically get out of my bed, studying at 3AM. Things will get worse, I'll see things that I don't want and deep down it will always be on me.
CTB sucks, but it's the only I have. Just wanted to share this with you. Listen to "Slipping Through My Fingers" from Abba. It's a pretty good song and it always makes me cry. It has a significance to me, I guess. Memories and stuff, from not that long ago.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds so horrible what you are going through. Living really is so painful and I know that this life can be unbearable when you suffer so much. I understand that it can be awful knowing that things will get worse. I hope that you find relief from pain.