Just another day

[Cherrypea]

How do you get through the day? I get out of bed with such dread every morning. Yet I have to carry on with family life. Today I'm taking my little girl lake swimming with a picnic but all I want to do is lay and wallow in self pity as my emotional pain is so hard.

 

[Toobrokentofix]

It is SO hard! Well done for making that plan! I need to plan more and distract myself with something other than my morbid and self destructive thoughts.

 

[Dude1983]

I get trought the day, just not thinking in the future, just one more day :D, and focusing on things i like

Well, as im not living anymore for myself, because i dont care life, i live for my dad, i dont wanna leave him alone in this world, he needs me so i try the keep me alive as much time as i can. So 1 more day alive, its 1 less day of work for me, when he dies, it will be easy for me to use a cal 12. on my head, if destiny allows me to keep myself alive, by not putting me on unbearable pain

 

[Wayfaerer]

If not for recreational drugs, I'd already be dead (or on an SSRI though that is not much different.)

 

[Werewolf]

Alcohol, lots of alcohol. It's not really a long term solution but I didn't plan to stick around for very long anyway.

 

[reareq]

I try to have something to look forward to (album of my favorite band, a tv show, a restaurant I wanna eat at) or make plans with other people. I hate letting anyone down So I grit my teeth through the day. Nowadays I stopped making plans though.

 

[Meditation guide]

I get out of bed with such dread every morning.

I do too. Each day is unbearable. I only have the internet to distract myself. I never go anywhere. No one would believe how hard each day is for me. Mine is physical suffering.

 

[snuff]

just same shit same day

 

[Despairing]

I use drugs as an escape.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I sit and think about suicide all day, getting excited to die

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

Yeah, its hard. I don't even know. Dissociation makes the days go by faster hah. I'm just doing daily tasks, feeling totally epmty inside and then I just lie in my bed after everything is finished.