Venting Just a rant about my wanting to kill myself

[Pure]

I wanted to kill myself back in July but I decided to wait because of a family members wedding I needed to go to in October. Well I can't go because it's abroad and my school tells me I'll fail the course. I told my family about this last year but of course, the family member (sister) prioritized her wanting the wedding in the fall no matter what.

Lol my family has no respect for me but I still feel morally obliged to not off myself now when I want to. Now I'm suffering through the school year when I could have been freed from this over the summer.

Anyways even past October I'm delaying my suicide, gonna try out a spiritual retreat in December that has good reviews for people with depression.

I know it's my choice to stay alive past October but I'm still so mad about the whole situation. I'm suffering over people who have zero respect for me.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I can't believe they have 0 respect for you going to med school. Wtf?

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine how this must be frustrating. I'm sorry you are suffering. I wish you the best.

 

[cowboyy]

So sorry that people around you have no respect for how difficult the life of a medstudent is - I also belong to that group and are lucky enough to have a family that would perhaps even understand if I weren't able to attend my own Father's funeral if it meant I had to fail a semester. One good thing from the 1000 shitty ones, I suppose.

 

[Pure]

So sorry that people around you have no respect for how difficult the life of a medstudent is - I also belong to that group and are lucky enough to have a family that would perhaps even understand if I weren't able to attend my own Father's funeral if it meant I had to fail a semester. One good thing from the 1000 shitty ones, I suppose.

Lol wasn't really expecting to find another one on here. I guess I just navigate life thinking I'm the only one who's suicidally depressed