I've read all I can on suicide and I still can't do it

[nebulaz]

The topic became boring to read about a long time ago. Mix the 'drink', drink it. Got it. It will kill. Proven by chemistry and physiology. That's why I don't come on this forum. Suicide is a homogeneous, boring topic I became numb to over a year ago. I don't know why I still breathe.

I still can't order the SN or anything else. I still can't move forward in life because of my credentials.
I'm tired of being rejected by society in that way and failing over and over again.
I seriously don't know what to do. Life feels like nothing but a chore and I lay down and wake up every night and day fantasizing about ordering the shit and ending it. I don't know why I can't.

 

[WornOutLife]

I guess that makes us two.
Also, I read a lot about the afterlife and eternal nothingness lol

 

[nebulaz]

I guess that makes us two.
Also, I read all about the afterlife and eternal nothingness lol

I accept the unknown if I were to die, I guess. No one's explanations seem to satisfy me. I guess I believe none of us truly know what exists beyond the sensations our nervous systems can create, I'll just have to see. Lol. I can't take near death experiences seriously, as they could easily be caused by a phenomenon similar to ego death.

 

[WornOutLife]

I accept the unknown if I were to die, I guess. No one's explanations seem to satisfy me. I guess I believe none of us truly know what exists beyond the sensations our nervous systems can create, I'll just have to see. Lol. I can't take near death experiences seriously, as they could easily be caused by a phenomenon similar to ego death.

I totally agree with you.
We'll never know who is right but we might find it out once we die.

I don't trust NDEs either. I was in a coma for 2 days and saw nothing. Just woke up in a hospital with a WTF face and mistook two doctors for aliens haha.

 

[FallenFromGrace92]

I totally agree with you.
We'll never know who is right but we might find it out once we die.

I don't trust NDEs either. I was in a coma for 2 days and saw nothing. Just woke up in a hospital with a WTF face and mistook two doctors for aliens haha.

If your in a coma you aren't dead so your spirit hasn't transitioned yet. Nde's where people have been clinically dead are reliable

 

[WornOutLife]

If your in a coma you aren't dead so your spirit hasn't transitioned yet. Nde's where people have been clinically dead are reliable

You've got a point.
However, everything is reduced to the same question: WHO IS RIGHT?

I guess we'll have to wait and see.

 

[Celerity]

Me too, man. Welcome to the club. I'd wager the vast majority of people on this website will ultimately back out. I wouldn't even bet on myself.

Committing suicide is one of the most difficult things a person could do, maybe the most, if not in agonizing physical pain.