I've been on here 2 years today.

[Marktheghost]

It's my anniversary. I've been on here 2 years today.

Does that mean I'm an evil member now rather than a victim?

 

[Dot]

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not understand what you mean by 'evil member' you seem like a nice person OP. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

It means u enjoy it here lol! U make friends, u contribute, it's like being part of a community. It isn't surprising that some people come here with intent to suicide but then it ends up being a place u enjoy visiting or a place of support. God is happy that u haven't suicided. He sees it as a great loss if we suicide ourselves, and loves all of us even if we don't acknowledge him or love him.

 

[Frog]

Happy anniversary

 

[Marktheghost]

I do not understand what you mean by 'evil member' you seem like a nice person OP. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

I mean in the eyes of the anti-sanctioned suicide people, who think we're evil people brainwashing people into killing ourselves. Maybe they think the relatively new people are the victims that have never thought about killing themselves before they find this forum, and the more established members are the evil ones doing the brainwashing.

You're right though. I can confirm that I am indeed an extremely nice person.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

Do you still want to ctb?

 

[soinvisible]

I am new here still, but from everything I have seen, its a place where people can be very honest discussing something that freaks most people out to hear. And to get support. And I am willing to bet that there are plenty who stay alive because there is a place to talk it out. And I think its just fine to be here two years. If being here helps life be bearable to where one chooses to stay, that's great. One can totally have ideation or think it will be good to die someday/a death wish and need a place to go talk and support others without wanting to cbt. I am glad you are still alive. Never feel badly for that!

 

[Marktheghost]

Do you still want to ctb?

Yes.

 

[Hurt]

I've been here for more than a year since I joined. Obviously I felt suicidal many times before joining but everyday I want to ctb. I don't know if it's good or bad that I'm still here. As time passes this becomes heavier. I don't want things to get worse than they actually are. It's OK to stay and enjoy life but it seems pretty hard for me.