Venting It's too late

[Kazu Ha]

It feels like I'm already dead.
I'm just a shell now and I feel empty.
Every day is torture and I see no improvement.

No doctor or therapist can save me anymore.
Any help comes too late.

I had hopes and dreams, but all that is history now.
I hate it when I look in the mirror and see this strange figure.

This world is a nightmare.
Every day is wasted time. Every day is the same.

 

[Seaghost]

Yeah...feeling the same.

 

[boyafraid]

I relate to this feeling too. I've been dealing with mdd and suicidal thoughs for almost 7 years now. It almost feels like some weird dream. Also, I never thought I'd make it to 18 and now I'm 20 lol. Feels like I'm just a physical body with no actual soul behind it if that makes sense lol. I never had any goals like most of my classmates did because I thought I would never be alive to see them through. Not a fan of this world either thanks to lack of empahty in most people, prejudices, and all the fuck up shit that happens. I think that if the world was a genuine good place, dealing with mental issues would be more doable.