It's so tiring

[kekcal24]

This reality, this struggle, the circumstances I was born into, the unattainable wants, the regrets, the intrusive thoughts, everything is so much to deal with, and I still somehow function. Not even depressed, just I'm aware my suffering is 4x my pleasure, joy, happiness, and honestly it's meaningless to drag it on any longer than it has to so I've resigned to offing myself. Maybe I am depressed, and just in denial. "Life's a gift." Anyway, it's a good enough reason for me to leave. My life's a net-negative, and I've realized it. Worst part is I can only foresee it getting worse from here.

 

[MiserableBastard1995]

Right there with ya on that.

 

[L951788]

It's odd. Being born, maybe it'd be best to know what you're getting yourself into. But you look around and no one has any answers. I've asked myself this a lot. I look around at other people's eyes. Their gaze. Just what are they chasing after? What are they doing? I don't know. It's all shared ignorance at this point.

 

[whitefeather]

This reality, this struggle, the circumstances I was born into, the unattainable wants, the regrets, the intrusive thoughts, everything is so much to deal with, and I still somehow function. Not even depressed, just I'm aware my suffering is 4x my pleasure, joy, happiness, and honestly it's meaningless to drag it on any longer than it has to so I've resigned to offing myself. Maybe I am depressed, and just in denial. "Life's a gift." Anyway, it's a good enough reason for me to leave. My life's a net-negative, and I've realized it. Worst part is I can only foresee it getting worse from here.

Did your SN arrive ? Steamm took his SN on Saturday ?