Venting It's like bashing my bloody head against a wall

[MrBlue]

I was stopped jumping off a bridge in March this year and gave myself 6 months to achieve something of note after I graduated uni. It didn't have to be anything major, if I'd made one friend online, or improved my fitness noticably, or got a job...any one thing to make me feel like I was getting SOMEWHERE with my life. But 6 months is coming up in a couple of days and I've achieved jack shit. I'm still friendless, still jobless, still never been in a relationship, still disgusting to look at and pathetic in every aspect of my life. I'm not depressed, just realistic in how useless and shitty I am, and by extension my quality of life is/will be. The only reason I'm still around is that my methods available are'nt 100%, and part of me knows I deserve feeling like shit because of how pathetic I am.

 

[Mr2005]

This might make you feel better. After dropping out of college I've done absolutely fuck all and that was 17 years ago

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm still around is that my methods available are'nt 100%, and part of me knows I deserve feeling like shit because of how pathetic I am.

I've noticed this pattern on this site of not just you but lots of people talking very hatefully about themselves because they feel inferior or worthless. I accept you at your word that you are not depressed but I don't understand this self flagellation I see so much of here.

I haven't done much with myself either in life. But I don't feel the urge to beat up on myself over it. The world does enough of that for me. I like myself in spite of being a miserable failure. It's ok to not do anything. You're just human. Stop beating on yourself please.