It's getting worse. Might CTB soon

[Sick of it all]

So things have gotten worse for me. I'm experiencing manic moods and I can't slow it down. The pressure is too much. I need a way out. I think I'll CTB sooner than later. The clock is ticking for sure.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that it's so dreadful when things just get worse. One of the most horrifying things about living is that there is no limit as to how bad things can get and how much we can suffer. I understand the feeling of being desperate to leave, it really is such a cruel existence. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[Sick of it all]

I know that it's so dreadful when things just get worse. One of the most horrifying things about living is that there is no limit as to how bad things can get and how much we can suffer. I understand the feeling of being desperate to leave, it really is such a cruel existence. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

Thank you. I'll keep this thread posted with my plans.

 

[Deleted member 10090]

I'm sorry things are continuing to get worse. However, I highly recommend waiting until you are out of a manic episode to consider plans if you haven't fully thought them through prior to this.

 

[Sick of it all]

I'm sorry things are continuing to get worse. However, I highly recommend waiting until you are out of a manic episode to consider plans if you haven't fully thought them through prior to this.

I'll wait until I'm settled but I have my method picked out. I've been thinking of CTB for a long while.

 

[takemenowpls]

So things have gotten worse for me. I'm experiencing manic moods and I can't slow it down. The pressure is too much. I need a way out. I think I'll CTB sooner than later. The clock is ticking for sure.

I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I understand completely. Last time I was manic I tried to CTB. All I can say is be careful with impulse. It normally leads to failure or worse.

 

[Sick of it all]

I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I understand completely. Last time I was manic I tried to CTB. All I can say is be careful with impulse. It normally leads to failure or worse.

Yea I'm just getting stuff together for my exit. I will wait until I'm more of sound mind before doing it.

 

[takemenowpls]

I wish you all the best. I'm glad you are thinking straight

 

[freedompass]

Wow when I'm proper manic I lose insight and think I'm fine lol. Always blows me away when people know they are manic. I know plenty do. Wish it made me want to clean the house from top to bottom too (sorry that's off topic). Maybe you have a mixed episode. To want to die while manic might suggest that but I know everyone is different.

 

[Sick of it all]

Wow when I'm proper manic I lose insight and think I'm fine lol. Always blows me away when people know they are manic. I know plenty do. Wish it made me want to clean the house from top to bottom too (sorry that's off topic). Maybe you have a mixed episode. To want to die while manic might suggest that but I know everyone is different.

Manic or not I still want to CTB. My episode started last night and I did the cleaning thing, it just was an impossible task. I rarely go manic but last night I was way manic. I do have mixed episodes but usually it's just depressive. It feels weird when I go manic.

 

[theboy]

I hope you find peace, friend