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Steamm

Arcanist
Feb 28, 2020
446
I could stay days without seeing my whatsapp that i wont get any messages except from work.
 
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symphonyofthenight

symphonyofthenight

Member
Dec 17, 2020
35
I feel the same. It's sad and lonely. I'm sorry to hear you have to suffer from that. If you want to talk, I'm here.
 
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justsad&done

Visionary
Nov 11, 2020
2,804
You always have someone to talk to here. But I know what you mean. I look at all the "happy" people around me in my life and I can't relate. :hug:
 
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mjs135

mjs135

Member
Dec 16, 2020
62
I could stay days without seeing my whatsapp that i wont get any messages except from work.
I know the feeling. Probably don't help myself by been difficult to open up, but even still always here if you want to talk
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Loneliness can be a pain. I hope things get better for you soon.
 
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CoalmineCanary

CoalmineCanary

Member
Jul 15, 2020
477
Hey, I'm ashamed to admit that sometimes I go to the grocery store just to say hello to a smiling cashier. It may be my only real human interaction for that day but it's something.
 
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Bigpink

Warlock
Oct 12, 2020
706
Same here, sometimes I forlornly check my phone. But at the same time I like the utter solitude, comfortable and familiar.
 
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sighingspider

sighingspider

Hi, How are you.
May 28, 2020
48
You should join a group chat, or a discord server. That's what I do when I feel lonely, which is most of the times. Some discord servers are very supportive, so maybe you should look into that?
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
Same here! I'm really isolated from the world. Although it was my choice, I mean, my depression's choice
 
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Tesha

Tesha

Life too shall pass
May 31, 2020
927
I deliberately self isolate as a way of punishing myself. I've built up so many barriers to friends and family,, that the only person I vaguely feel comfortable talking to is my clinical psychologist. Not sure what's going to happen if I can't afford to pay for her anymore.

Maybe being alone in my own head again will be the impetus I need to crack open my SN.
 
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IAmExhausted

Member
Dec 6, 2020
30
Yeah, it's quite strange actually. I posted in a couple of WhatsApp group chats, nothing special, random stuff. Texted a few friends. Few to no reactions.

Is it really because of the holidays? Couples, families gathering together, detox from social media?
 
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FinalDestination

Here lies my hopes and dreams
Mar 10, 2020
214
I've been feeling that same isolation too, even though I never used to as much before (ample distractions with hobbies and work). Although it is self inflicted, but serves a purpose for later on when I finally do pass on. The loneliness I guess keeps me on that goal and is in turn a comforting thing
 
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x~Sophia~x

x~Sophia~x

Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
Sep 10, 2020
1,360
Same here, sometimes I forlornly check my phone. But at the same time I like the utter solitude, comfortable and familiar.
I relate to this so much. :hug:
You should join a group chat, or a discord server. That's what I do when I feel lonely, which is most of the times. Some discord servers are very supportive, so maybe you should look into that?
What is a discord server? Please excuse my ignorance.
 
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Teal_Blue_Dreams

Teal_Blue_Dreams

Specialist
Sep 15, 2020
399
I relate to this so much. :hug:

What is a discord server? Please excuse my ignorance.
its like a group chat. but you can watch movies together and stuff. i joined one and it has really brightened my day.s pm me and we can chat more about it! :heart:
 
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SuicidallyCurious

Enlightened
Dec 20, 2020
1,715
I relate to this so much. :hug:

What is a discord server? Please excuse my ignorance.
discord is a newish chat platform you can download it, just google it and ask for the server details from people
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
Don't let the Holidays get anyone down

Please
 
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x~Sophia~x

Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
Sep 10, 2020
1,360
its like a group chat. but you can watch movies together and stuff. i joined one and it has really brightened my day.s pm me and we can chat more about it! :heart:
Thank you :)
 
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Teal_Blue_Dreams

Specialist
Sep 15, 2020
399
I could stay days without seeing my whatsapp that i wont get any messages except from work.
i completely relate to this. you are not alone!

i've literally lost all of my friends bc of my mood disorder. i'm better w it now but i had to really lose my shit before i realized something was wrong big time and get help. unfortunately, by that time, i was all alone and people were talking shit about me behind my back. it makes me so so sad and i feel so embarrassed.

this place has been really good for friendly, supportive people. i'm around anytime if you wanna chat. :hug:
 
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neverever

Member
Dec 10, 2020
77
the only person I vaguely feel comfortable talking to is my clinical psychologist. Not sure what's going to happen if I can't afford to pay for her anymore.

Maybe being alone in my own head again will be the impetus I need to crack open my SN.
oh, I can relate to this
 
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Deleted member 24006

Member
Nov 20, 2020
59
Couldn't agree more with all these posts. If it weren't for marketers I'd never hear from anyone - regardless of whether I just saved their cat or cured their cancer ...... always been that way. I don't think I could even hire a friend. L-O-L
 
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Teal_Blue_Dreams

Specialist
Sep 15, 2020
399
Couldn't agree more with all these posts. If it weren't for marketers I'd never hear from anyone - regardless of whether I just saved their cat or cured their cancer ...... always been that way. I don't think I could even hire a friend. L-O-L
do you save cats and cure cancer? this is very exciting!
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
I love you all
 
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stygal

stygal

meow
Oct 29, 2020
1,729
I go through times where even answering a single text is too much for me and even though I crave connection to others I completely withdrawal myself from everyone.
That led to nearly all of my friends leaving over the years.
I do understand it though...I'm not an easy person.
 
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Deleted member 24006

Member
Nov 20, 2020
59
do you save cats and cure cancer? this is very exciting!
I did adopt an amazing cat, but sadly do not cure cancer - yet. :-)
I go through times where even answering a single text is too much for me and even though I crave connection to others I completely withdrawal myself from everyone.
That led to nearly all of my friends leaving over the years.
I do understand it though...I'm not an easy person.
I relate -
 
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x~Sophia~x

x~Sophia~x

Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
Sep 10, 2020
1,360
I go through times where even answering a single text is too much for me and even though I crave connection to others I completely withdrawal myself from everyone.
That led to nearly all of my friends leaving over the years.
I do understand it though...I'm not an easy person.
I could've written this myself, stygal.
Even worse if someone actually phones me!! :O
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
I go through times where even answering a single text is too much for me and even though I crave connection to others I completely withdrawal myself from everyone.
That led to nearly all of my friends leaving over the years.
I do understand it though...I'm not an easy person.
A. crazy thing is that I already know that I do not stink it seems, but I have not taken a shower or cleaned myself in any way beyond hand washing for the past month or two..

And I feel disgusting
 
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x~Sophia~x

Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
Sep 10, 2020
1,360
A. crazy thing is that I already know that I do not stink it seems, but I have not taken a shower or cleaned myself in any way beyond hand washing for the past month or two..

And I feel disgusting
You're wrong, you really MUST STINK!
But, as long as I don't have to smell you, I don't give a shit. :ehh:
 
Teal_Blue_Dreams

Teal_Blue_Dreams

Specialist
Sep 15, 2020
399
You're wrong, you really MUST STINK!
But, as long as I don't have to smell you, I don't give a shit. :ehh:
lol!
A. crazy thing is that I already know that I do not stink it seems, but I have not taken a shower or cleaned myself in any way beyond hand washing for the past month or two..

And I feel disgusting
spitfire what are you talking about? you haven't taken a shower in 2 months?!
 
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