perishsong
it/she
- Sep 10, 2025
- 109
Over and over and over and over and over again.
I get a job, then I'm too autistic to actually understand what I'm being asked for, when I ask for clarifications I'm sent back to SOPs, I fuck up, I stress out, I get called sensitive, my misery speeds up my up-fuckery in a closed positive feedback loop *of its own, I get sacked, I plan to CTB, I get hired again.
I'm done with the same fucking thing. I was gonna CTB in mid January and every time I postpone it, I regret it eventually.
Nothing ever fucking changes, only the flavor of suffering.
I get a job, then I'm too autistic to actually understand what I'm being asked for, when I ask for clarifications I'm sent back to SOPs, I fuck up, I stress out, I get called sensitive, my misery speeds up my up-fuckery in a closed positive feedback loop *of its own, I get sacked, I plan to CTB, I get hired again.
I'm done with the same fucking thing. I was gonna CTB in mid January and every time I postpone it, I regret it eventually.
Nothing ever fucking changes, only the flavor of suffering.
