It's about to get real bloody

[ornitier199]

I'm in for a very gruesome suicide today and I deserve it, because as long as I've continued to put off killing myself things continue to worsen . But not anymore. i know what it is is that set off the impulsive nature in me today and i'm glad it did, because as I've mentioned before impulsiveness is the only way i could kill myself properly an stop being the same slug going in circles without actually killing himself as I should've done in 2020, when i had all the encouragement to do so. Now im left with my impulsiveness, and yes its gonna be painful, im gonna yell, from the physical pain of stabbing cutting but in the end i'll slit my throat and bleed out like a little bitch on this floor, and while my pathetic ass will rot here, at least one problem will be settled in the world. Another statistic, another slug another nigga. Dead.
I managed to get the right knife to do this method at least, that's only thing I managed to get right for once.
But still not enough for that revolver, right alexander?
I don't care if you think this method is stupid or whatever. It'll get me to death no matter what, because there is no one around to stop the bleed out.

I am a slug. I am. I deserve to die, always and forever in any form.
No need to waste your kind words or wishes on my pathetic ass. I'm not capable of it either

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a horrifying way to leave this world. I know that this life can be unbearable when you suffer so much and I understand being desperate to leave. I hope that you find relief from your pain in whatever happens.

 

[FindingTheEnd]

I wish you a good luck

 

[September5th]

Good luck! I envy your impulsiveness, if that makes you feel any better. You'll soon be free from this hell ;)

 

[hopelessdreams]

my heart aches for you, the way you talk so badly about yourself.. we'll welcome you with open arms if you decide against it, alexander.

 

[Medicmedic72]

I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I hope you find peace.

 

[jimmy7754]

I'm a weasel.

 

[CursedSoul]

damn, good luck, i'm thinking of stabbing and removing the knife, slicing is too random in my opinion, depends alot on the force etc... Idk, for me stabbing seems the better way to go, only thing you can fuck up is not going deep enough, but slicing tho, gotta calculate the angle, to place, the strenght, the precision, the skin elasticity (knife will sort of like bounce off ? you know, not cut properly coz a bit elastic, idk my english is bad), idk, best of luck tho ! hope you will die of the shock so it's painless, take care

 

[alliebear]

Youre not slug and nobody deserve to die that way, but if you're not here anymore, i wish the best for you buddy. The fact the we all fight for another day, im proud of you. If you second guessing, youre welcome in open arms here. X

 

[ornitier199]

that's not my name.


i am in fact a slug. he got it all right.

hell i stil have the phone call from that day too.

everything makes me suicidal, just the thought of anything does. what i dont understand, is how i can have so many fresh cut wounds across my body is still be alive.
ive done so much self harming i dunno how the fuckim still consoious

all i know is that my right hand as been aching and fingers tiwtching alot, i wish this was a sign of death.

the pain in my head is unbearable i dont why i keep fucking posting here like its doing anything besides making a fool out of my already dumb ass self.

literrally begging to be put out of my misery.
i get it im meant to die but its not killing me wtf just let me fucking die already

i wish i had someone like ryan to talk to in my last moment, understanding so i would die somewhat peaceful not alone.