It seems so easy

[borderline_over]

It's our 2nd wedding anniversary.

We're in a beautiful hotel in a beautiful city. We should be out enjoying ourselves and celebrating, but we got into another fight, (because that's what we do on vacation).

I cancelled our reservations. He left and went for a walk, and I'm standing on the balcony, 20 floors above.

It seems to easy right now. I could just, climb over and dive into the cold air and it would all be over in a matter of seconds.

No more heartache, no more stress, no more worrying about my job... but I can't bring myself to do it. What is it that I'm so afraid of....

 

[chrijo]

That´s your biggest enemy. Survival instinct.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

I hate being a "human".

The first thought to flash into my mind: a beautiful woman, dressed up and ready to go out, lying on the concrete, while cameras flashed around you. I wanted to type, "No!".

That instinct to cling to life, to protect our bodies and often the bodies of others, runs so strong. It's sickening.

I hate that you're having a bad anniversary. I can't offer any words of consolation, but I do understand how it feels to hold such highly conflicted thoughts. Virtual hugs.

 

[borderline_over]

I hate being a "human".

The first thought to flash into my mind: a beautiful woman, dressed up and ready to go out, lying on the concrete, while cameras flashed around you. I wanted to type, "No!".

That instinct to cling to life, to protect our bodies and often the bodies of others, runs so strong. It's sickening.

I hate that you're having a bad anniversary. I can't offer any words of consolation, but I do understand how it feels to hold such highly conflicted thoughts. Virtual hugs.

This made me cry... thank you for your words, they are more consoling than you know <3

 

[SkyBlue]

Maybe it still isn't the right thing to do after all... maybe you want to live?

 

[Sickman75]

It's our 2nd wedding anniversary.

We're in a beautiful hotel in a beautiful city. We should be out enjoying ourselves and celebrating, but we got into another fight, (because that's what we do on vacation).

I cancelled our reservations. He left and went for a walk, and I'm standing on the balcony, 20 floors above.

It seems to easy right now. I could just, climb over and dive into the cold air and it would all be over in a matter of seconds.

No more heartache, no more stress, no more worrying about my job... but I can't bring myself to do it. What is it that I'm so afraid of....

Im so sorry that your vacation ended up like that. I really am.