it is what it is

[Deltawaves74]

it destroys me that so many people have been left destroyed by life by people by illness. i guess i use to feel that people should try to keep going i hoped they would find some sort of way to get through, whatever that might be. weird coz i never saw that for me i knew i was fucked a long time ago but in my heart i wanted it to be for u . now i see that suffering of any kind with no solution isnt ok. its agony waking up everyday with no easing of this hell. i dont know theres like people who have a shit life but something keeps them going then theres so many that are trapped between life and death and then theres those who take that final decision and opt out of this life.
sorry just thinking out loud i feel alot calmer lately its like internally the decision to opt out is being made and its calming for me. i dont want to see anyone or talk just want to be left, its all changing, havent slept well for months and now im sleeping more than ever. not sure if any of this makes sense

 

[motel rooms]

not sure if any of this makes sense

It does

 

[FuneralCry]

It makes perfect sense to me. This life is very cruel and it is painful being stuck in a hopeless situation with no chance of it ever improving. There is no limit as to how bad it can get either, many people feel as if they have no choice to ctb as they are desperate to be free of pain.