It is depressing how time passes too slowly.

[FuneralCry]

I am so tired of these long, pointless days, time always passes very slowly and everyday is the same. All that life is, is just distracting ourselves until we die. I see no point to suffering for many more decades until old age just to die eventually. I wish that I was already gone, I should have left a while ago, but I really should have never existed at all. To me, it is just so terrible and horrifying how life is a thing in the first place, I never feel well, and I never want to be here, I just exist and things will only get worse. It even feels very pointless writing about this again.


I am tired of thinking and feeling, I am tired of noise, I just want to not exist. It hurts me being alive. I wish to be nothing, as when I am dead, I cannot suffer as there will be no more me.
I just cannot understand how anyone can put up with this life for so many decades. To me, simply just existing is tiring. Death will always be preferable to any life. Nothing could ever make me want to stay. Even without everything that is horrible about life, life bores me. I could never have any interest in living, life just seems to be suffering for the sake of it, and everything that humans do is just a distraction from how pointless life really is.

It just feels so wrong me being alive and dying is all that feels right. I look forward to the day that I can be free from it all. No more long days, no more waiting until I fall asleep, no more distracting myself day after day. Instead there will be peace and I will be free from the possibility that things could get so much worse. I do take comfort from the fact that death will come eventually no matter what, only I wish that it is easier to get there.

 

[Enigmatic Sailor]

Same, my brain feels like it's depleted of all dopamine and serotonin. The days and months don't matter anymore. I just see repetition and pray for something to shake things up. I've even lost pleasure in imagining and pondering various things. I just want to shock myself with electricity to feel something. No more good times for me!

 

[come to dust]

100% agree

 

[Darkover]

yeah well i am bored every day hate having to wake and be bored all day with nothing to do due to a brain injury, life sucks then you die

 

[Ligottian]

At least in my case, the older you get the faster time seems to flow. Last Christmas, I remember thinking how it seemed summer was just a few months ago. Now we are in a new summer.

 

[Noctis]

Right? I'm not bad enough that I'm actually suicidal right now, but the thought of living another 40 years is awful. I'm so bored with just existing.

 

[thendfornow]

At least in my case, the older you get the faster time seems to flow. Last Christmas, I remember thinking how it seemed summer was just a few months ago. Now we are in a new summer.

Im only 21 but i can agree the time seem to go faster as you get older, but still you rather die young if you can to avoid years and years more of suffering.

 

[Rational man]

Suffering is impermanence. It will pass because w e eventually do die.

 

[bluem00n]

Yes, time does appear to speed up as you get older, possibly because with each year that passes, a year becomes a smaller and smaller percentage of your life ... when you're 20 years old for example, one year is 5% of your life; when you're 50 years old, one year is just 2% of your life, so a year seems to pass more quickly.

It's amazing to me that the turn of the century is now 22 years ago, because - if I had to guess without knowing - I'd say it was maybe 8 years ago! ... I certainly have no idea how on earth 22 years has elapsed, but it does reflect how much the passage of time has accelerated for me, subjectively at least.​

 

[Anonymus]

In my particular case, if time goes by faster I will have sparks flying all over me and I will disintegrate. It accelerated mostly from 12-13 but now I'm 44 and feel like I'm 20. It's crazy to live like this..

I know it has to do with how fast the brain/mind works, when it goes very fast time passes very slowly, when it goes very slowly time passes very quickly.

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En el meu cas particular, si el temps passa més depressa em saltaràn espurnes per tot arreu i em desintegraré. S'em va accelerar sobretot a partir dels 12-13 anys, però ara tinc 44 i em sento com si tingués 20. És una bogeria viure així..

Se que te que veure amb la rapidesa amb que treballa el cervell/la ment, quan va molt ràpid el temps passa molt a poc a poc, quan va molt lent el temps passa molt depressa.

 

[Meaninglessness]

The modern man in the society has too much time before death. Unless we shorten our life, most of us have decades to prepare for death. We live protected in houses without enemies. In nature, there are deadly dangers everywhere. The older you get, the faster you experience time passing which depends on the function of memory. But everything is relative. The Universe is 13.8 billion years old and humans seldom live more than ninety years. However, man should have the right to die when he wants.

 

[Ineedtodie]

I turns my lights off at 6pm just to make the day shorter.