Well I tried ctb twice, the first OD but it failed since I just did it without any actual knowledge, 2nd time tried by partially hanging but I got too scared (that was this last monday) the 2 days after felt nothing and that was kinda good but today I felt like everything came back, specially after a few really dissapointing things that happened to me today, so I just ordered my SN so I am planning to finally do it this wknd. Now I see it clear it doesn't get any better I made a fool of myself believing I will possibly have another chance but I was so deadly wrong.
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MsSelfsabotage
Member
- Feb 7, 2022
- 22
Feeling the exact same thing today. This weird pressure/ pain in my chest has never been this bad. First time I'm actually excited about ctb and looking forward to it. Can't wait to order N, drink it and peace out
. I can't take life anymore, I hate that when I get hopeful that it's gonna get crushed anyways. Life doesn't get better, the older you get the worse unless you're filthy rich and can compensate the pain with material things and traveling.
Isit
Member
- Jan 5, 2022
- 52
What happened today that made you order the SN?
I've tried to ctb with SN before but it was very impulsive and I ended up in hospital. I hope you have given yourself an adequate chance and I wish you peace whatever happens.
Crazy4u
Enlightened
- Sep 29, 2021
- 1,318
it won't get better. It would either stay the same or get worse. Getting worse is what makes me want to ctb soon. I can't do this anymore
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,619
Things will never get better for me and I know that for a fact. Things will very likely get worse and I do not want to be there to see it. I just want non existence. Life is very disappointing and depressing, and to have hope for something and then lose it, is certainly painful. I'm sorry it has come to this. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
AnestheticVoid
❤️ Dissociatives ❤️
- Feb 17, 2022
- 273
whatevs
Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
- Jan 15, 2022
- 2,911
These people kill themselves too, the very rich and able to travel freely.Feeling the exact same thing today. This weird pressure/ pain in my chest has never been this bad. First time I'm actually excited about ctb and looking forward to it. Can't wait to order N, drink it and peace out . I can't take life anymore, I hate that when I get hopeful that it's gonna get crushed anyways. Life doesn't get better, the older you get the worse unless you're filthy rich and can compensate the pain with material things and traveling.
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