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Iwantedtodieforlong

Iwantedtodieforlong

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Sep 1, 2021
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Idk if i should add a trigger warning but just in case i should this story includes pedophilia so if you're sensitive to that don't read

When i was 13 I used to play this one online war game and in my guild lots of people used to talk about sexual stuff, I told them i was 13 and they still kept talking about it (they probably thought i was joking but i acted really childish, i even told them when i got my first period and talked about school) so basically when they used to talk about sexual shit i used to be disgusted by it (because bodily fluids penis asshole and whatnot) so anyway we had a kik groupchat to talk about war in the guild and whatnot and i had a 25 year old talk to me (online) occasionally and we talked about everything, i sent him pics of my face and told him i was 13 and he kept calling me pretty, asking for nudes, made sexual jokes and all that stuff. Is it wrong that i low-key had lots of fun teasing him and talking to him because he gave me attention? He made me feel less insecure even though it was predatory i just enjoyed the attention and the praise from a older guy
 
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chocolatebar

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Jul 11, 2021
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I don't think it's a good thing for you to question the ethics of what you did, especially because you were in the side of the victim. You may think that it was a simple event, but it may have affected you psychologically and the fact that you still think about it may be a bad signal.

I think it's best for you to keep in mind that the guy was predatory, as you said, and that you were a curious and insecure teenager, who didn't know about the possible consequences. Don't label it as right or wrong and remember that every guy you talk to here and there may do the same as him when online.

If this keeps haunting you, you can seek therapy. I hate therapists, but this is the kind of thing they're good at helping
 
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Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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Is it wrong that i low-key had lots of fun teasing him and talking to him because he gave me attention? He made me feel less insecure even though it was predatory i just enjoyed the attention and the praise from a older guy
No, it isn't wrong that you enjoyed the attention & the praise from an adult - all kids do, especially the insecure ones. Predators know how to exploit that fact.
 
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chocolatebar

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Jul 11, 2021
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No, it isn't wrong that you enjoyed the attention & the praise from an adult - all kids do, especially the insecure ones. Predators know how to exploit that fact.
You just wrote in a sentence what I struggled trying and couldn't transcribe to words after staring at this screen for a long time.
 
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BetweenRadioStations

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Aug 10, 2021
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Idk if i should add a trigger warning but just in case i should this story includes pedophilia so if you're sensitive to that don't read

When i was 13 I used to play this one online war game and in my guild lots of people used to talk about sexual stuff, I told them i was 13 and they still kept talking about it (they probably thought i was joking but i acted really childish, i even told them when i got my first period and talked about school) so basically when they used to talk about sexual shit i used to be disgusted by it (because bodily fluids penis asshole and whatnot) so anyway we had a kik groupchat to talk about war in the guild and whatnot and i had a 25 year old talk to me (online) occasionally and we talked about everything, i sent him pics of my face and told him i was 13 and he kept calling me pretty, asking for nudes, made sexual jokes and all that stuff. Is it wrong that i low-key had lots of fun teasing him and talking to him because he gave me attention? He made me feel less insecure even though it was predatory i just enjoyed the attention and the praise from a older guy
No, it's human
No, it isn't wrong that you enjoyed the attention & the praise from an adult - all kids do, especially the insecure ones. Predators know how to exploit that fact.
You hit the nail right on the head!
 
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