Is there anyone who you hope will feel guilty once you CTB?

[Largeletters]

Like the title states, is there anyone who you hope will feel guilty once you CTB? If so, why? For me, I hope it will be my childhood bully and my controlling ex.

 

[loopylou]

My ex, but I know he won't give a shit.

 

[it's_all_a_game]

Ohhhh yeah, mostly some bullies & a person I looked up to that pushed me away, even though I sincerely admired them.

 

[ExistentialEntropy]

I harbor no ill will for others. I try always to treat people with the love with which I wish to be treated. It is my view that when we interact with other minds, we interact with another part of ourselves, as we ourselves are one infinite consciousness. Not separate. The purpose in of life, to me, is to find peace and so in helping each other to find peace, we bring peace to ourselves, as we are indeed all one awareness.

To wish feelings of guilt on another would be to wish feelings of guilt upon myself.

 

[ElizabethsFault]

Like the title states, is there anyone who you hope will feel guilty once you CTB? If so, why? For me, I hope it will be my childhood bully and my controlling ex.

I hope my former therapist, Elizabeth will. Since I wouldn't have a strong desire to CTB, had I never met her!

 

[Largeletters]

I hope my former therapist, Elizabeth will. Since I wouldn't have a strong desire to CTB, had I never met her!

I'm very sorry you had such a bad experience with your therapist. They are supposed to help you, not hurt you, and unfortunately can abuse their power.

 

[littleloup]

No, I don't believe there's any person that would care even if I did have one. I do know my family would feel guilty but I also hope they wouldn't.

 

[Diesel_Punk]

It's not like it will do me any good after the fact so I guess I just want to dissappear and leave as little as possible behind.

 

[filthyrottendirty]

Yeah everyone tbh but they won't and most won't even know I'm dead

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Probably everyone in my life who has the gall to actually feel sad about my death in the first place. Those idiots should just be happy that a small bit of evil will be gone from this world.

 

[Pen>Sword]

Nobody. If anything, I should feel bad for them because I've mistreated most people at some point in one way or another. OK, that may be an exaggeration. But still, the reason why I'm suicidal because I've been having regrets and felt guilty about my actions and inactions. I really wish that I don't exist anymore and stop causing all these misfortunes to other people.

Even the well intentioned ones caused pain to other people. Just last week during my nursing clinical, I've "helped" someone back to their bed after an unwitnessed fall. My dumb ass thought that I need to bring her back to the bed. Boy, was I wrong. I'm causing more harm than good because that could've caused worsened hip, spine, or whatever skeletal injury she has, and the primary nurse has to assess her first before touching her.

As I've always said, the world would be a better place without me.

 

[logan]

I hope no one feels guilty - but I am sure they will.

 

[listeningpost1379]

I don't care about that but objectively, most people dont feel guilty about loss. They feel grief and frustration.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't want anyone to feel anything after I leave this earth. I want my existence to be erased and for me to pretty much disappear. No matter what emotions people feel, I wont be there to witness them, so it doesn't matter to me.

 

[deletednumber]

Sometimes I think I wish my father, mother and brother would cry a few real tears at my death, that they think they could have done something more to help me. But this is an unreal fantasy that will never happen and just this thought makes me suffer a lot.
For all these years while alive they have been telling me how much I am a failure and how much I have ruined their lives. Inside I feel that when I die, deep down they will feel relieved. In their little brains they never thought they behaved shit with me They are immaculate like angels, they think they did everything possible and they feel clear conscience.They will go around saying that I was crazy and that I ruined their life and that's it.Yeah,how not?...it's all my fault

 

[Eudxiomoniia]

I struggle between knowing my morals of this. There are numerous people I want to hurt for causing my death to the point where I've even thought I should just blame them for it, I know it seems selfish but at the time they hurt me so bad causing me to spiral into suicidal ideations. I fantasised about the pain they should feel and it gave me some sort of happiness knowing they would feel guilty and blamed for my death. I know it is morally wrong and that they would have to feel that guilt and somehow I don't want to put all of that on them as much as they hurt me I would never want to cause someone else to spiral into ctb.

 

[goat]

Absolutely not.
I'm alone in life.
And I'm suiciding because I want to release myself from an unbearable suffering, I mean no harm with this action and I'm peaceful to know it will cause none.