Is there anyone that can relate to my story?

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I feel so along in my suffering. But basically

1) Absed physically mentally and psychologically by my mom so bad I developed suicidal thoughts at age 13
2) Mom told me to commit suicide multiple times
3) was bullied in every school level even college
4) sexually harassed at apsychward at 18 and then at college at 21
5) Had horrible therapist experiences and a shitty psychiatrist

I feel so along in these issues and that nobody gives a fuck

 

[Deleted member 14386]

1- Yes, I got panic attacks at 9, mum forced me (physically) into the car and I wasn't even fully dressed. She was late for work
2- kinda, I say I wanna do it and have gotten the response "then just do it already".
3 No surprisingly, I'm a kinda nerd but made the bullies laugh (unfortunately I had to make fun of the bullied too, I felt bad about it even then), so I was safe there. Also my cousin was a good friend of the bullies. (Also I was effing crazy, after someone started a fight with me I would lose. Wait a couple months then literally strangle them/bash their heads against metal lockers, hit them with rocks, sneak up on them when they're pissing and slam their head into the wall.)
4 No
5 Yeah, they got me addicted to benzos and now refuse to help
Idk if that fits lol but I'm sure your not alone. That all sounds very horrible.

 

[Meditation guide]

Yes, most of it. Not the same as you describe but a life of similar things. Number five, yes the same for me.