Is money a reason you want end it all?

[Tormented Soul]

Money or lack there of is one of the main reasons i want give up. health issues and an unsafe enviroment where i live are the other 2 reasons. i live on 1100 a month disability and its NOTT enough. i cannot work and there is no hope for me.

But with money i could get my own safe place to live and get better treatments for my illness/injuries and not have to worry how im going get thru every month. the stress of struggling is killing me.

I had one chance, my dad had half a mil and i was supposed to get it when he died, but he got sick and his girlfriend moved in to take care of him, he died a year later, the will came and she got it all. plus his $250,000 house (my childhood home), his 3 cars and 2 boats. (over a million in everything) she gave me nothing out of it.


So i ask, do any of you hav lots of money, but still want to end it all?

Doesnt the money help to change your life or circumstances?

 

[black money boys]

partially, yes


personally for me, wanting to CTB is inevitable being but financially unstable definitely boosts this

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm a 56f. I have plenty of money saved i want to die because of severe depression. I've tried every med. Ketamine and ECT. I spend most of my time rotting in my bed. It's been over 2 years now and I am no longer able to work. I would give all my money away if it could cure me.

 

[badatparties]

No, i could have a billion and I'd still want to go. Why would being able to acquire more worldly garbage make me feel better?

 

[ripfalloutnewvegas]

yeah personally at the end of the day not having enough money is why I'm going to ctb I feel like if I cant afford to live I shouldn't so I'm not going to my mom is getting on my ass which is understandable I just can't get a job the job market is hard rn and I'm having health issues. When I ctb I wont have to worry about not getting any callbacks from jobs or too low of pay I'll just be free from all the BS I need to atleast sell everything or give away everything I have first gotta afford my funeral.

Money or lack there of is one of the main reasons i want give up. health issues and an unsafe enviroment where i live are the other 2 reasons. i live on 1100 a month disability and its NOTT enough. i cannot work and there is no hope for me.

But with money i could get my own safe place to live and get better treatments for my illness/injuries and not have to worry how im going get thru every month. the stress of struggling is killing me.

I had one chance, my dad had half a mil and i was supposed to get it when he died, but he got sick and his girlfriend moved in to take care of him, he died a year later, the will came and she got it all. plus his $250,000 house (my childhood home), his 3 cars and 2 boats. (over a million in everything) she gave me nothing out of it.


So i ask, do any of you hav lots of money, but still want to end it all?

Doesnt the money help to change your life or circumstances?

thats vile that she did that to you.

 

[sanction]

Money or lack there of is one of the main reasons i want give up. health issues and an unsafe enviroment where i live are the other 2 reasons. i live on 1100 a month disability and its NOTT enough. i cannot work and there is no hope for me.

But with money i could get my own safe place to live and get better treatments for my illness/injuries and not have to worry how im going get thru every month. the stress of struggling is killing me.

I had one chance, my dad had half a mil and i was supposed to get it when he died, but he got sick and his girlfriend moved in to take care of him, he died a year later, the will came and she got it all. plus his $250,000 house (my childhood home), his 3 cars and 2 boats. (over a million in everything) she gave me nothing out of it.


So i ask, do any of you hav lots of money, but still want to end it all?

Doesnt the money help to change your life or circumstances?

Damn. Sorry to hear. Is that girlfriend a gold digger?

And yes, money and survival stress definitely one of the main reasons I want to CTB.

Just so damn tired of this existence

 

[weeping<3willow]

ya. i'm fucking poor and have nothing after my mom died. step dad took everything and abandoned me right after, luckily my step sister forces him to keep me on his insurance and phone plan bc he loves her, but that's about it, and i'm boutta be too old to stay on the insurance. also family on my mother's side lost interest in me when they found out i wasn't getting any money from it.

since all of that i've been living in sober livings, and when rent comes up and i get kicked out i relapse until i'm tired of being homeless or the couch i'm crashing on gets too hot and just go into another rehab. so many years wasted. i probably wouldn't be any better if things remained the way they were but my mother would make sure i have a place to stay bc i never stole and i'd have her comfort. she used to hold me when things got too scary and just let me cry. i miss her so much.

 

[metfan647]

I feel I've peaked in every possible way I personally can given all my cognitive deficiencies and limitations caused by the state of my mental health (for the avoidance of doubt, I've achieved nothing). I was always doomed to being a wage slage so I adapted at a young age to frugality and minimalism.

At this point, money wouldn't change my trajectory or desires.

Even the prospect or having a mortgage-free house or flat and escaping wage slavery would be novel for a short time but my foundations are alreay far too compromised.

 

[enditplz]

I do okay financially. I never worry about bills. If I was struggling financially, I'm sure I would have already ended it. But I'm still depressed and lonely. So I'll just wait it out till I get fired and run through all my savings before I end it.

 

[itsgone2]

Yes. It's the reason I'm here. Kind of the only reason since all of my regrets are tied to this. I should have known better.

I have to think it's the reason for the vast majority

I feel like something is wrong with me. Some job and career Reddit forums are all about career. They acknowledge what a horrible market it is and discuss options. I guess I've tried thinking about options but only CTb seems real

Feels like I've given up

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

its not the only reason but its one of the reasons

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's a part of the reason. Or, at least- having money would take the pressure off the current situation that makes me want out.

Basically that I'm tired of having to support myself and all that entails. Earning enough while not absolutely despising the job I do. But, I worry when I have work. I worry when I don't. I'm tired of feeling worried. I'm tired of the pressure to feel that worry too. Anyone who is in touch almost immediately asks about work. I think there's almost an expectation or want that we should feel worried, unhappy and exhausted because of work. I'm tired of being a part of the system.

So- for now, money would certainly help. Long- term though- I imagine new unsolvable problems will surface. I don't fancy experiencing old age or illness. Not much money can do about that really.

 

[Alpacachino]

I do well. I won't want for money, my parents made sure of that. That being said,Nothing excites me,drives me or gives me joy anymore.

That being said, I'll agree with one thing. Having more money may not make your life better if you already feel like **** But not having it will make your life a lot worse.

 

[darksouls]

poverty is awful, when you are poor, your whole life is a constant struggle for survival

 

[Forveleth]

Money can solve some problems, but it does not solve all problems and can give you new, different problems. I live comfortably, money wise, but I am sad and lonely and can not wait to be dead.

 

[eyeswithoutaface]

absolutely!! one of my reasons for being here in the first place is becuz ik i wont be able to support myself and i have almost no passion in any careers on top of that, promise if i was a billionaire id live for 100 yrs

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Yeah, I have no way to make money beyond demeaning minimum wage jobs. This after being the "gifted" kid. I always thought I was so high up. But once I reached college age, when you're tested, I wilted. I'm not going to work every day in a teenager job for peanuts at 36. Better to rope.

 

[vergnano]

It would help me to have some money, but it aint so much of a problem as compared to others

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

A lot of my ideation these days involves economic anxiety, but I had ideation before I understood that money would ever be a problem for me, so no, probably not

 

[L'appel Du Vide]

Not able to safely work but also not considered legally disabled to receive assistance, one of the lowest and sometimes longest lasting forms of poverty someone in a developed country can experience. Survival basics end up happening through the mercy of sympathetic folks around you and if you can't get your story out to be heard by someone who can help you just do without up to and including death in some cases. So yeah, it can become a more legitimate of a reason once you realize that death or prison are the only other guaranteed ways out. I look back on what it was like to try to get by on a somewhat equal playing field fondly, despite how sketchy it already is and was, and envy the legally disabled folks like the OP who can at least get the $1100.

 

[BlueberryDeer]

It's my main reason, yes.
I have difficulties for finding jobs, because I'm transgender woman and, altrough there is anti discrimination laws, I feel often rejected of my applications even if they don't be explicitilly discriminatory.
Homelessness freaks me out. I'm in a foreign country and not able to return to my home country.
So dreaming about lottery is my main obsession. I'm not aiming to live in New York, or Monaco, or Dubai... just have a two or three bedroom apartment for me and 2 cats, a good Internet connection...
Also, lottery could help me to do some aesethic procedures, such as breast surgery and brackets.
Being unemployed freaks me out and it's my main trigger to my suicidal tendencies.

 

[slapntickle]

For me it's absolutely a huge factor. If I did inherit or come across some large amount I'm not sure I'd be super happy but I'd def hang around so I could bring up my son, learn new things, travel etc etc. Money brings freedom. If I don't manage to do this reasonably soon (ie in the next few years), I think I will CBT just so my son can have the chances that I didn't.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

Money or lack there of is one of the main reasons i want give up. health issues and an unsafe enviroment where i live are the other 2 reasons. i live on 1100 a month disability and its NOTT enough. i cannot work and there is no hope for me.

But with money i could get my own safe place to live and get better treatments for my illness/injuries and not have to worry how im going get thru every month. the stress of struggling is killing me.

I had one chance, my dad had half a mil and i was supposed to get it when he died, but he got sick and his girlfriend moved in to take care of him, he died a year later, the will came and she got it all. plus his $250,000 house (my childhood home), his 3 cars and 2 boats. (over a million in everything) she gave me nothing out of it.


So i ask, do any of you hav lots of money, but still want to end it all?

Doesnt the money help to change your life or circumstances?

Yes this is my main reason

 

[goldenwitch]

she gave me nothing out of it.

no offense but she sounds like an evil ghoul

as for the question, yeah absolutely. ive worked hard all my life. yet i only have like 5 clothes (as in clothing items, including everything) total. im aware i smell, its so embarassing. my trousers are coming apart on me, i can barely patch it up anymore. i just lost all my 3 jobs and im unable to sustain myself. benefits and aid are not a thing in my country. i dont know how ill make do. i dont consider myself dumb. im smart, well accomplished, and yet i still cant find a proper job that pays well and doesnt exploit me. i just wish i had more money.

Spoiler: slight nsfw topic

ive considered sw but im physically not able to do that due to physiological effects from csa trauma

i barely get paid anything yet even for so little i have to abandon my whole identity as a trans person, having to live as a gender i do not relate to. just to not even get by. 300 dollars a month from three jobs is bullshit, frankly. its hard. and no one shows me any pity even at school, not even a bit. capital corrodes human empathy.

i dont want to live in a society where we let our morality be overwritten by the best interest of those who crush us. i dont want to live in a society where im valued less than dirt just for being poor. i dont want to live like this.

 

[lpdsvm]

Well. This is my main reason because I have to have it to survive haha. Technically, I could be just fine working a regular job if I were given the right circumstances from the start which I can't change without loads of money , then I would have been OK until a surprise bill. So all in all, money and circumstances decide when I will CTB.

 

[spacealiens]

Money or lack there of is one of the main reasons i want give up. health issues and an unsafe enviroment where i live are the other 2 reasons. i live on 1100 a month disability and its NOTT enough. i cannot work and there is no hope for me.

But with money i could get my own safe place to live and get better treatments for my illness/injuries and not have to worry how im going get thru every month. the stress of struggling is killing me.

I had one chance, my dad had half a mil and i was supposed to get it when he died, but he got sick and his girlfriend moved in to take care of him, he died a year later, the will came and she got it all. plus his $250,000 house (my childhood home), his 3 cars and 2 boats. (over a million in everything) she gave me nothing out of it.


So i ask, do any of you hav lots of money, but still want to end it all?

Doesnt the money help to change your life or circumstances?

Money would dramatically improve my quality of life I would likely achieve all my goals and desires with enough and be happy to continue living

 

[lpdsvm]

no offense but she sounds like an evil ghoul

as for the question, yeah absolutely. ive worked hard all my life. yet i only have like 5 clothes (as in clothing items, including everything) total. im aware i smell, its so embarassing. my trousers are coming apart on me, i can barely patch it up anymore. i just lost all my 3 jobs and im unable to sustain myself. benefits and aid are not a thing in my country. i dont know how ill make do. i dont consider myself dumb. im smart, well accomplished, and yet i still cant find a proper job that pays well and doesnt exploit me. i just wish i had more money.

Spoiler: slight nsfw topic

ive considered sw but im physically not able to do that due to physiological effects from csa trauma

i barely get paid anything yet even for so little i have to abandon my whole identity as a trans person, having to live as a gender i do not relate to. just to not even get by. 300 dollars a month from three jobs is bullshit, frankly. its hard. and no one shows me any pity even at school, not even a bit. capital corrodes human empathy.

i dont want to live in a society where we let our morality be overwritten by the best interest of those who crush us. i dont want to live in a society where im valued less than dirt just for being poor. i dont want to live like this.

So sorry. It is really too little. I can't imagine how you keep it all up together. You are strong.
Those p$dos should not decide how you feel now. Screw them.

 

[darkandtwisty]

75% yes. I gave up a wonderful job making fantastic money. I moved across the country with a job lined up. But they withdrew the offer 3 weeks before moving because it was taking too long. The job is still posted and they put me down as reviewed and not selected.
I'm out of money and no job with rent due in a week. 75% is due to financial issues I'm now dealing with because I took a leap of faith. 25% because I am a goddamn disgrace and a failure.

 

[Tormented Soul]

Damn. Sorry to hear. Is that girlfriend a gold digger?

And yes, money and survival stress definitely one of the main reasons I want to CTB.

Just so damn tired of this existence

i didnt think she was, but she stuck to her guns saying if my dad wanted it any other way, he'd hav done so, so she is going to (conviently for her) honor his wishes!

Not able to safely work but also not considered legally disabled to receive assistance, one of the lowest and sometimes longest lasting forms of poverty someone in a developed country can experience. Survival basics end up happening through the mercy of sympathetic folks around you and if you can't get your story out to be heard by someone who can help you just do without up to and including death in some cases. So yeah, it can become a more legitimate of a reason once you realize that death or prison are the only other guaranteed ways out. I look back on what it was like to try to get by on a somewhat equal playing field fondly, despite how sketchy it already is and was, and envy the legally disabled folks like the OP who can at least get the $1100.

the 1100 def helps me, but id rather not hav the broken neck, chemical illnesses, anemia, heart disease, chronic pain/insomnia/fatigue, ulcers and more and be able to work a little bit.! my illnesses/injuries cost me so much money i can never pay my bills and always behind/things getting shut off, which my many of my conditions even worse. health is everything imo! id rather hav that then a billion dollars. i wish could let some of people on here hav my body for a week, then give them thier reg bodies back, it may help some see they arent so bad and it could be so much worse. i dont know, it all just sucks ;(

 

[alstroemeria55]

If money was my biggest concern maybe I would've been able to deal with it. I'm sick of this life full of suffering and meaninglessnes, just chasing distractions.