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gardenoflonely

gardenoflonely

I'm ready whenever you are, God
Apr 29, 2026
101
I seriously don't know what to do anymore. I think it would be less stressful on my end to not leave a note. People will feel how they feel regardless, and me trying to take control of a narrative through a note is never going to work. I know that I haven't done anything to deserve to feel like this for so long. That's enough for me. I don't know what explanation I can give to anyone else that won't make something worse. I can't even write that it has nothing to do with them or isn't their fault...ultimately it is my decision I know this but I felt so strange trying to be comforting in this note to people that mistreated or abused me. I started writing out a note on a google doc but it's just so wrong. I deleted the whole thing. They'll be fine without it and me
 
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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
277
It's not wrong. You don't owe anyone an explanation. If you weren't heard in life, it's too late to be heard post-death.
 
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TheHangman

Member
May 16, 2026
30
I don't plan to leave a note. I think my hanging body will send more of a message than any note could.
 
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mrwagnerfan

Member
Mar 7, 2026
12
You don't owe anyone a note. So feel free not to leave one. I, however, have for some reason always left a note. I like to write so why not? It's different for everybody.
 
burninghill

burninghill

Experienced
Dec 2, 2025
230
I don't think that it is wrong not to leave a note. I have tried to write them countless times and a short one just felt shallow, but a long one just turned into rambling and brought up more questions than answers. Nobody knows about my suicidality, so trying to write a note that explains it would take a lot of, well, explaining.

The worst part is that I can't even write a note to assure everyone that theres nothing they could've done, because there is a lot of things that the people around me could've done differently that would've helped.
 
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122uth

122uth

New Member
Aug 17, 2019
3
i want to write one but i'm losing my mind thinking of how it would be written. everything i write (in general) feels wrong. i wouldn't want to point out anything specific because i don't want to mislead anyone if i'm just being an idiot again and then my stupid words last forever... but i feel like it's wrong to leave no explanation.

i don't blame other people for why i ended up this way (not saying this to spite ppl in this thread. i think i'm lucky that i haven't been hurt by others as much as hurt by myself)
 
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