Venting Is it really selfish?

[MrBigSad]

I tried to ctb and failed my attempt. My parents are the kindest. Most caring parents anyone could ever ask for but that still doesn't change the fact that I don't want to exist.

Sometimes it feels like I'm simply obligated to be here. Like because of other people I have to exist.

I don't find any enjoyment in things. I have constant nightmares. I've been on Prozac for a long time yet I don't feel any happier at all.

Do you think I could ever explain it in a way that they would understand so that they are happy for me instead of distraught? Life wasn't a choice, I never asked to be born. Now I really want to leave.

Is it selfish for me to not to keep feeling like this?

 

[Life_and_Death]

No it's not. My husband use to say the same thing. I remember one day he told me that suicide is selfish. But after living with me and seeing my struggles.... He's less likely to get in my way if I do ctb

 

[Futile]

Absolutely not, in fact it's selfish to oblige someone to live despite them not wanting to only because you would feel bad otherwise

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i don't think they'll truly understand, if you explain it to them. there's no way to get rid of the pain your suicide will bring them. it might alleviate some of it, but it won't get rid of it completely.

it's not selfish to want to end your life. you have a right to die, as well as you have the right to live.

 

[MrBigSad]

i don't think they'll truly understand, if you explain it to them. there's no way to get rid of the pain your suicide will bring them. it might alleviate some of it, but it won't get rid of it completely.

it's not selfish to want to end your life. you have a right to die, as well as you have the right to live.

thankyou :) i'm not sure if you're still around, but i'm not dead yet. Wish you the best in whatever the fuck comes next if you are tho

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

thankyou :) i'm not sure if you're still around, but i'm not dead yet. Wish you the best in whatever the fuck comes next if you are tho

Oh wow. How have your 5.5 years been?

 

[MrBigSad]

Oh wow. How have your 5.5 years been?

took a shitload of pills and tried to drown, failed like how i do in everything. Made a lot of mistakes, Kinda feeling better now. hope things have been ok with you as well. Apart from my dad telling me how disappointed in me he is. If anyone else calls me a dumbass or says they hate me it just bounces right off. My fat protects me. TLDR i'm doing alright but i got nothing to worry about. How're things with you?

 

[pelicanportal]

I mean, yeah, it is, but aren't we allowed to be selfish when it is our own life and our own pain? I am sorry if it hurts but it isn't selfish like murdering or violating another person.