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sweet_oblivion

Member
Apr 18, 2022
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Have had my ctb date set for a while now but I honestly don't know if I can make it that long. I'm so tired, my mental state is beyond bad, and masking everything from the people around me is too exhausting. Most of my things are in order, the only thing I haven't done is write any notes but idk if I would even do that or not. Do you think I should wait until the date I decided or just get it over with in the next few days? Is there any benefit in waiting other than the fact that I'll have time to overthink it and end up postponing?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,388
I feel like only you know when the right time is to ctb as it is your life and your decision after all. I'm not sure that I could ever stick to a date personally, I think I will eventually have to find a way to leave when I get very desperate. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much and I know that it can be hard to carry on when you are so tired of everything. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you and I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,430
I don't have an actual date "set" because you never know when SI will come back to put a wrench in your plans.
 
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its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
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There's no "correct" answer, there's just whatever you do.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,880
Have had my ctb date set for a while now but I honestly don't know if I can make it that long. I'm so tired, my mental state is beyond bad, and masking everything from the people around me is too exhausting. Most of my things are in order, the only thing I haven't done is write any notes but idk if I would even do that or not. Do you think I should wait until the date I decided or just get it over with in the next few days? Is there any benefit in waiting other than the fact that I'll have time to overthink it and end up postponing?
Yeah, I had to postpone my CTB because of my brother's terminal cancer diagnosis--Now, I'm Not sure I can make it for 6 more months, would take me just a few minutes to get ready toCTB using the big Nitrogen tank
 
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