Is family a reason to stay?

[killedbypsychiatry]

I have an illness that makes my existence very very hard. I suffer 24/7. I want the pain to go away. But at the same time I don't want to hurt my family, specially my twin sister. She's the only thing I am here for. I lover her so so much. I've mentioned once I wanted to cbt and she got traumatized and cried for days. She got so hurt and I'm still here I can't imagine her pain once I'm off. This is so hard. I just wish I was never born if this was my fate. Should I stay because of her? Maybe I should wait until she has a family of her own... she's only 18... maybe I'll wait 10 years :/

 

[saltshaker]

Yes it is.

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate.
My dad and dog are the only reasons why I'm still here but...
If you're unhappy, ill and will only suffer if you keep on living, is it really worthy living for others?

I've decided to give life one more shot but just for me, because in the end, I might ctb even though I love my dad and dog.

That's why, in spite of the fact that people might disagree with me, I insist on the fact that CTB is a kinda selfish act because no matter how much you love your family or friends, you will end up leaving this world alone, on your own in case you ctb. (well, when you die normally too but you got my point.)

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Your call, I personally will only survive until the tfw no gf psych dmg gets too much. I'd prefer my family not to feel bad but if the pain is too much, then it's too much.

 

[Trisolaris]

For me it isn't a reason to stay. I can't keep on suffering just so I wouldn't hurt others.

 

[booray]

My family is making it very difficult for me to ctb. I have expressed to them that I don't want to live anymore, but I think they just see it as empty threats and don't realize how serious I truly am. Now that I have the means (SN), it's becoming more real that I'm actually going to do this and so I can't help but think about how that is going to affect my family.

 

[Donk]

Can't answer that question for you. I know you have good intentions but the way you phrase the question can get people in trouble. I wish you all the best.

 

[flyaway]

It's a reason for me and probably the only reason why I'm still around. Don't know for how long it's still going to be one though since I'm pretty sure that sooner or later I'll simply stop caring and just do what I feel is the best for me.

 

[Bergamot]

I'm in your same situation and I don't want hurt my parents with a infinite ciclo of sadness and depression for my fault. They do lot and everything to me and is not they fault for my problems. I try try everything to stop this pain but when is inside you inside your blood you can't do anything. The only way stop me to finish is they my lovely parents that I love so much.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

My family is the reason I want to die. They are the source of the emotional pain.

 

[ana]

This is something you and your conscience will have to decide.

My parents have gone till the depths of this world for me, even though sometimes they can bring my soul a few bits of pain. I think the people that are closest to us are the ones with a greater chance of hurting us. Thinking about how they will handle my death is devastating because I know it will tear them apart. With that said, I am most likely only going to catch the bus after they are gone.

But if the day comes where I can't handle the weight of the world anymore, I will just have to leave them.

 

[Frauw]

You can have whatever reason you want to stay, family and loved ones are just the default one.

 

[Pen>Sword]

You can say that it is the only thing that keep me alive. It is both a blessing and a curse. Blessing because they will love me no matter what. A curse because I can't CTB at will. A loving family is a major hindrance to suicide.

 

[Q-Dust]

Not having method and being afraid of death is pretty much my only reason