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Jack25

Jack25

Member
Jul 22, 2024
32
Since my mental health has gotten considerably worse in the past few months, I've been crying more often but I just don't feel the same relief. Maybe my endorphin receptors are just fried but I don't like this new reality.
 
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getoutgirl

getoutgirl

got out the site <3
Mar 17, 2025
558
I physically can't :)
but boy I wished I could
you want a new sea, where? put me there
 
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GhostInTheMachine

GhostInTheMachine

Safeguard
Nov 5, 2023
529
I was literally abused for daring to cry so I maladapted myself to suppress it as much as possible. On the few occasions I do manage to cry, it's either only a few tears or full-on bawling. The latter does help a tiny bit after the fact, but it can only do so much. I do wonder how much my inability to cry often is part of my emotions being outright broken.
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
For me crying is really helpful in releasing lots of built up pain but I am rarely able to do it unless I am at my most extreme pain and at that point I am screaming in pain and crying heavily for 10s of minutes. I wish I could do it more to release more of this painful energy in me.
 
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Felodese

Felodese

Experienced
Mar 31, 2024
295
Nope, not cathartic 😐
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

wants to sleep forever
Feb 1, 2025
564
I wish I could cry but I never ever do no matter how bad it gets >.< I bet it would feel cathartic at least the first few times...
 
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CravingPeace

CravingPeace

It’s only a matter of time
Feb 19, 2025
344
I'm with others here when they say they physically can't cry anymore. The only times I can cry now are in the middle of panic attacks but even then I have to force it. I wish I could release the emotional tension when I actually need to.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,471
Over the last two years I have cried a lot. Lately not so much. I think I have some kind of mastery over the traumas I am aware of maybe. IDK. I cant say it was helping me when I did cry. I think as a man it made me feel very weak. I was cognizant of my brokenness which is significant. I did eventually come to understand this is normal human functioning however.
 
PaperGodzilla

PaperGodzilla

Member
Mar 20, 2022
60
Since my mental health has gotten considerably worse in the past few months, I've been crying more often but I just don't feel the same relief. Maybe my endorphin receptors are just fried but I don't like this new reality.
when i'm crying i feel instantly relieved but i'm more like sobbing 30s, somehow i wish to be able to cry more
 
seizmic_purple

seizmic_purple

Member
Apr 12, 2025
64
For a while now, it hasn't done anything for me. I might even be worse off. I usually let it out when it comes, and it doesn't last long, but I don't feel better or relieved afterwards.
 
belowaveragefish

belowaveragefish

YonKaGor Enjoyer
Jan 10, 2025
42
Since my mental health has gotten considerably worse in the past few months, I've been crying more often but I just don't feel the same relief. Maybe my endorphin receptors are just fried but I don't like this new reality.
It actually is. I've spent the last 13 years bottling everything up. Allowing myself to cry now and again is probably one of the few things that has kept me around.

It's a good thing until I remember how much life fucking sucks.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
2,086
Since my mental health has gotten considerably worse in the past few months, I've been crying more often but I just don't feel the same relief. Maybe my endorphin receptors are just fried but I don't like this new reality.
Same. There is no more relief, so I try to avoid crying as much as possible.
 
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ConfusedClouds

Mage
Mar 9, 2024
531
I'm with those who rarely do/can cry. When it does its usually pretty dramatic and can be cathartic but often then turns into spirals of confusion and frustration at the inconsistency of it all unless there was actually a standalone event that its a legit reaction to.
 
Britney Spears

Britney Spears

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
542
Before I cried every day, now I can't, I'm in shock and it's of no use to me. Besides, my family would see me even weaker.
 
hopelessANARCHIST

hopelessANARCHIST

wannago back to a place that doesn’t exist anymore
Apr 25, 2025
4
generally i struggle with crying to such a pathetic degree, i've done all sorts of weird shit to try to make myself cry to have some sort of release. i've finally been at such a deep low that i've been crying frequently for the past few weeks and personally, yes it's been very cathartic to finally just be able to regularly cry on my own without watching sad videos. Crying does usually accompany an incredibly painful mental spiral/rumination for me which isn't pleasant but at least I am physically expressing the despair.
 

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