Is being a bad person a good enough reason?

[Idoe.know]

The majority of us run from our shadows. It could be because it's a natural human reaction to keep our survival, or perhaps it a cultural influence that forces us to turn our back to what we are most ashamed of. Whatever it is, it doesn't make our darkness secede.

Today I inadvertently came face to face with the truth: I truly am a bad person. I fight it every day. I try to not be, because I know it's wrong, but I'm just naturally bad. I think bad thoughts. I have a hard time not being rotten to others. I cannot overcome the mental wall to do better for the economy or society around me. I am just a fleshy host to bad vibes and wickedness.

I wish there was a way to turn myself into the prison system and get the death penalty without having to actually do something heinous enough to "warrant" it. It should be warranted enough that such a worthless and terrible being has wasted so many valuable resources by just existing and taking.

If others knew of my inherent badness, would they change their minds about me CTB? Those who end up exposed as evil later in life tend to be cursed out and told they deserve to die.

Well, here I am world. I am exposing myself now that I've come to realize. I am one of them. One of the naturally evil. I deserve the death so please convict me.

 

[Life_and_Death]

i think thats up to you, but i also feel under the right circumstances you could probably change. i also have to question how much of a chance you really gave yourself. you did say

I have a hard time not being rotten to others. I cannot overcome the mental wall to do better for the economy or society around me.

but you also said

Today I inadvertently...