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freakypossum

freakypossum

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Dec 24, 2024
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Not sure if it's the feeling of being useless and seeing sleep as a waste of time, the nightmares or the feeling when you wake up and realise youre still alive.
How do you manage that?
 
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ruinedlullabyboy

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Jun 23, 2025
1
i rarely have nightmares. i taught myself to escape in my dreams during earlier periods of depression. nonetheless, the night feels safe, and i stay up too late in the darkness. a powerful skill that i found useful is lucid dreaming. it's an underrated state of consciousness in which you can do almost anything. i think i started exploring it when my waking life became too much to bear. it helped me look forward to sleep, and anecdotally could even help with nightmares. if you want to try this, there are multiple guides online, but it isn't an every day sort of thing because it might mess with your sleep schedule.
 
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WhatCouldHaveBeen32

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Oct 12, 2024
332
I'm sorry to hear you've been dealing with nightmares. I've been having night terrors and nightmares since I was 4-5 , I used to wake up screaming, I still remember them vividly; Don't click the spoilers if you don't wanna read details about my nightmares, they're pretty normal tho.

getting punctured by sharp objects, running in hallways towards my mothers voice only to meet halfway something else running at me, being a little kid sleeping between my parents and getting dragged from my feet to the door into the darkness which made me scared for life to ever have my feet outside of a blanket EVEN IN FUCKING SUMMER AND I STILL HAVE THAT FEAR TO THIS DAY if it's night outside.

I also had some frisbee throwing robot for Christmas and was staying with my parents on the couch just for a frisbee to get launched near the washing machine and me going to get it only to get snatched by some weird goblin creature into the washing machine, that dream was so bad I was paranoid as a child to go near that area at night, I'm not even joking my heartbeat would go absolutely insane around that area. I would dream as a teen about witches and other pale creatures tearing me apart and screaming into my ears so bad I would be going numb with insane ear ringing and heartbeats when I would wake up. Obviously I would wake up shaking from all these mentioned if not screaming.


It's only got worse as I age but it doesn't have any effect on me anymore, I wake up with no sweat but mildly inconvenienced but there was one last month where I dreamt of killing a little kitten and I started sobbing in the dream and woke up shaking with my heart beating like I ran 3 marathons and I was literally afraid to go back to sleep.
 
GhostInTheMachine

GhostInTheMachine

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Nov 5, 2023
354
I have non-stop nightmares that leave me tired when I wake up. Sleep is not a rest for me at all, and I often feel impending doom in the moments before it. I just kinda got used to it and drag myself forward in the morning. Helps to have an awesome BF who I look forward to waking up to in the morning.
 
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treestumpisland

treestumpisland

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Jul 6, 2024
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Moreso dread it, even though I get alot more tired than usual nowadays. usually .... not quite nightmares always, but definitely unsettling/uncomfortable dreams. while i don't wake up in cold sweats and scared, it's weird dreams i'd rather not have and can have a better quality of life without lol. at this point, i'm just coasting, if it gets worse, i might speak to my doctor about it, but it's just, eh, necessary to sleep. i struggle with insomnia, ptsd, nightmares, or just crappy dreams, occasionally a nice/cool dream.
 
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xiaoxiongmao

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Jun 29, 2025
46
I'm scared of waking up—that's when my anguish hits the hardest, the pain is unbearable. Because of that I'm afraid of falling asleep as well
 
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dustymuck

dustymuck

Lonely idiot
Jul 21, 2025
7
I hate sleeping because I always wake up tired with my mouth and throat dry.
Sometimes I wake up with a headache.
It sucks. I have to sleep on my stomach to fall asleep.
 
NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,861
Sleep used to be purely an escape for me, I sought it. I still do.

But anxiety takes over sometimes now. I've had two seizures in my sleep over the past year. The first one was almost exactly a year ago, July 27th. It makes me scared to sleep sometimes, I don't want to have another seizure.
 
kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
394
I'm really scared of sleeping too. It takes me so long to fall asleep, and I have to be alone with the thoughts that torture me.
 
22yearsbroken

22yearsbroken

Lost in the dark... with no sign of light
Feb 15, 2025
377
What is the mysterious word your talking about... sleep what is that..

Mainly my head likes to take control at night and insomnia is my best and closest friend had about 2 hours in the last 3 days and im on day 4 now .. im am sometimes afriad of sleep because i know what it brings...
vivid and lucid nightmares that have haunted my life for decades and beyond ..
 

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