Irrational (unreal) thoughts.

[PrisonBreak]

I am struggling very hard with irrational (unreal) thoughts. I am at a point where I just cannot take anymore of my suffering but everytime I give in to the pressure I get bewildered by thoughts of fear that I know deep down are unrealistic. I fear that I am immortal, and that I cannot escape life no matter how hard I try. I also have bizarre or very strange thoughts of waking up in a coffin after being buried underground...(weird). I mean how intense can SI get??

I completely understand these are unrealistic thoughts fueled by survival instinct but how can one go around these thoughts/feelings when the circumstances are too much to bare?
I honestly am fed up and enough of being overwhelmed by constant fear. I keep telling myself that I will "do it" tomorrow but tomorrow ends up being next month. I keep delaying the inevitable even knowing that I do not have the strength to fight for one more day.

Can anyone else relate to this?
Any suggestions on how to channel my thoughts or feelings to think more clearly?

I would also like to add that I have already failed an SN attempt once by calling for help, I do not want to fail at it again.

 

[LucyB]

I think a lot of people struggle with thoughts that are not their own. If I start having thoughts of fear I observe those thoughts and I try to separate myself from those thoughts. It's a form of meditation. Fear seems to be rooted in the human body so acknowledging that helps too at least for me it does.