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Mar 28, 2026
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intrusive images flashing in my head of all the ways i could die on accident or on purpose, i cant stop obsessing over it. people noticed and had wellness check but i literally cannot stop obsessing like i have a crush on ctb. anyone else feel like this as their date nears or just in general, i have OCD which might give context. but i just listen to playlists and imagine only myself dying all these ways
 
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yellow rose

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I experience this, I'm constantly thinking about it, envisioning myself cbting.
 
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Aug 11, 2023
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ive always done this exact same thing, as someone with OCD!!! ur not alone <3
 
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ctb on may 3
Mar 28, 2026
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I experience this, I'm constantly thinking about it, envisioning myself cbting.
like people will talk to me and i dont even hear what theyre saying because im so lazer focused on ctb
ive always done this exact same thing, as someone with OCD!!! ur not alone <3
thank u sm <33 i love your layout btw :3
 
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find your own way to the Knife
May 1, 2024
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I have OCD and I understand this yeah. Intrusive thoughts are hell, I get intrusive thoughts about ctb and just hurting myself in general
 
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intrusive images flashing in my head of all the ways i could die on accident or on purpose, i cant stop obsessing over it. people noticed and had wellness check but i literally cannot stop obsessing like i have a crush on ctb. anyone else feel like this as their date nears or just in general, i have OCD which might give context. but i just listen to playlists and imagine only myself dying all these ways
wow i havent seen someone else talk about this, ive had this a lot. i have intrusive thoughts/images for a lot of things...dammit i might need to start looking into OCD symptoms..
 
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intrusive images flashing in my head of all the ways i could die on accident or on purpose, i cant stop obsessing over it. people noticed and had wellness check but i literally cannot stop obsessing like i have a crush on ctb. anyone else feel like this as their date nears or just in general, i have OCD which might give context. but i just listen to playlists and imagine only myself dying all these ways
Try not to watch gore.
 

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