Hi guys, I am a new lurker and have been dying to participate. I was waiting quite anxiously for my account to be approved. I won't say exactly what disease I have for fear of being recognized, but it is a neurodegenerative disease that manifests in young people. I spend most of my days just kind of existing, alot of my old hobbies just make me anxious because they make me more aware of my decline. I can't really watch much TV or shows because cognitively processing the plots becomes overwhelming, I worry so much about losing my abilities to think normally that even if I'm not yet super disabled the anxiety makes most things unbearable. I worry so much about every small mistake in thinking, some actual, some overstated by my anxiety. Not sure how long I'll stick around but my preferred method to have in my back pocket is as follows; intravenous #4 heroin dissolved in distilled water(I've never used opiates before but know how to do iv injections, should make my tolerance low), 2 shots of everclear, 6 Xanax, and a combo of antiemetics.
Hi. I'm sorry to hear of your situation. I have cognitive issues also. Gets me very down. I hope you find what you're looking for here or elsewhere xx
jodes2
Hello people ❤️
- Aug 28, 2022
- 7,736
I can't watch TV for the same reason. It's amazing how the little things get you. Welcome to the board, it's good to have you with us o/
HumansAreHell
Member
- Aug 31, 2022
- 58
I can only imagine how bad that is.. I have some cognitive issues as well, but mine aren't nearly that bad yet. It's still scary watching your body decline like that though. I'm sorry to hear about your situation but as a fellow newbie myself I welcome you here!
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 44,454
That sounds really awful what you have to endure. I'm sorry that you suffer like this. It's just so horrible how so many diseases exist. Life really is terrifying. I wish you the best.
tiny_dancer
Student
- Aug 23, 2022
- 136
Hi there. I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Life is just not fair sometimes. I understand the anxiety of not being able to do the things you used to enjoy. Glad you are participating here
