Hoi, uhh I'm not very used to using forums so pls excuse me if I break some unwritten rules, I'm learning. I've heard some of the horror stories about this place only to look into it and find them all wildly over dramatized. I consider myself an advocate of harm reduction and I consider something like this quite helpful, for recovery or peaceful passing. By making this account I'm potentially risking being seen by someone who might recognize me, but so be it, I need a place that has these resources, where this topic isn't so taboo, somewhere I can feel less alone.
Hi! I'm Mimi. Guess my gender, you'll be right. I'm mid 20s, and I love video games more than myself. Metroid, final fantasy, touhou, xeno(gears, saga, blade), and soulsbourn are some of my favorite series. I like robots and cats and sometimes I pretend I'm one or the other for fun. I'm childish like that. I hate sleep, hot weather, working, and being alive. I love my friends, food, and kandi. I have no marketable or creative skills. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, ADHD, and Anxiety when I was too young to remember my age. Probably not that young, I have an awful memory.
I must be doing something right though, people like me, like talking to me, say I'm funny or cute or cool or fun. But despite everything going for me, I have fantasized about death for almost my entire life (that I remember). Even happiness is torture, for pain follows like shadow. The very thought I will be working 9-5, doing taxes, paying rent, checking my email, and making phone calls for the rest of my life til the day I die fills me with a sense of dread I can't even define (I don't need to though, I'm sure you agree), dread so strong I want that day I die to be sooner rather than later.
