Help insomnia coping?

[eggsausagerice]

does anyone know how to cope with insomnia? i keep worrying about whether the people in my life hate me and if there's a way for me to be more tolerable or if i just need to block everyone and curl into a ball. whenever i have insomnia and stay up all night i usually spend the time thinking about how i'm not interesting or fun enough to be important. i try to think of how i could be more interesting, but i don't know, because i could still not be liked by people. sometimes i look in the mirror and wonder if i'm attractive, because i really can't tell if someone looking at my face makes them unhappy or if they like doing it.

having a light on makes me stay up but being in the dark makes it easier for me to keep my eyes open to think about the stuff i'm anxious about. closing my eyes makes me feel nervous so i open them again. i could just lay in bed without sleeping for hours because of how alert my brain feels. a part of me just wants to take my sn way sooner than 1 week and take it in 2 days, even though i know it'd be impulsive. i just really hate being awake this late because i stop being able to watch or read anything and just lay in bed thinking. i really wish that i could be prescribed sleeping medication, but i don't see a doctor regularly. i have insomnia more often on my period and just lay in bed thinking about things. i don't even remember the stuff i think about when i wake up. i just loop through the same thoughts on different nights.

 

[oopsijustdie]

Honestly I don't have any answer...but I can tell you...it is ok to feel that way... plus don't think about others...everyone are selfish... people don't even talk to you with out any selfish reason... don't overthink it...just be selfish enough for loving yourself

 

[fishperson]

instead of trying to sleep , try to find ways to exhaust urself. usually playing a game works for me

 

[WrathfulGloom32]

I also have insomnia but just woke up, my eyes are bloodshot.

I don't know how to cope with it, I mostly forget the night that I stay awake waiting for sleep.

 

[itsgone2]

There is no coping

At 10 PM I passed out because I was so exhausted from recent insomnia, being particularly brutal

I woke back up at 11:30. How could that be only an hour and a half?

Now I'm back wake up 1 AM. How brief must I have fallen back asleep again?

I could walk to my hanging spot. I have no idea why I don't. They only cope for insomnia is death.