Insomnia/Anxiety, Depression and can't wake up

[Schizotypal]

Hello, I just wanna talk about symptoms that occur together when I'm in "crisis". They start before each depression period and it keep happening while all the episode. They're basically are insomnia (my worst problem) to the point that I have too much laziness to wake up. But my difficulty to raise is because when I wake up I'm very depressed because I don't have a job or real friends so part of me speak (fuck off, there's no reason to raise), and it with laziness makes me don't raise. And because I'm waking very late. And because of anxiety, extreme anxiety, I wake up with my heart beating so fast, I'm so uncomfortable that I don't wanna wake up. Someone feels it? Is a fucking fight only to wake up.
I'm sorry, english isn't my language