in public i always feel like i'm guilty of something for example shoplifting, because the staff looks at me

[xXSufferingXx]

i have this weird brain fart or whatever where i create scenarios in my own head, like in the supermarket:
"the staff thinks you're stealing", and then it makes me nervous and then i look like i'm stealing EVEN MORE THAN I LOOKED LIKE BEFORE.

what do i mean by "i look like i steal"?

well, hoodies happen to be my favorite piece of clothing ever... sadly also stereotyped and asociated with criminals.
i like having the hoodie up, because it's almost like a like shelter from other people and the noise they bring.

but anyway, then when i feel like THEY THINK I'M STEALING, i overthink it and my face looks really guilty of shoplifting, WHICH I NEVER DID IN MY GODDAMN LIFE.

what is this disorder called? lol

 

[if_i_make_it]

take this w a grain of salt but this seems like OCD to me. anxiety is hellish, I feel you. I'm always in my head and anticipating what other people might think, its really exhausting.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

Sounds like anxiety. I feel the same thing. Also hoodies are super comfy and I think the same sbout them.

 

[violetforever]

i have that feeling of discomfort and guilt when im around people too. i feel like ive just done something noticeably wrong even though im just there existing like any other person in the room. im shy too so sometimes i just dont acknowledge or greet people and i know it comes off rude and like im ignoring them but its really my own insecurity :/

 

[ben_]

i'd also say anxiety. i think it's nice that you can name exactly what you're worried about. not like me - anxious as fuck and no idea why. well, not anymore.. i overcame it by not really going anywhere anymore so i'm fine now

i'm wondering if earphones would help you. tbh i don't think so, but may be worth trying.

 

[thelostautistic]

You're not the only one. I'm very paranoid and anxious and have similar thoughts to yourself. I don't want to diagnose you or self diagnose myself but I've suspected for some time that I may have ocd? Have you spoken to anyone in person about these thoughts?

 

[xXSufferingXx]

Sounds like anxiety. I feel the same thing. Also hoodies are super comfy and I think the same sbout them.

hoodies are the best lol

i have that feeling of discomfort and guilt when im around people too. i feel like ive just done something noticeably wrong even though im just there existing like any other person in the room. im shy too so sometimes i just dont acknowledge or greet people and i know it comes off rude and like im ignoring them but its really my own insecurity :/

exactly. i come of as rude sometimes from noy paying people any mind.
i won't ignore someone straight up who approaches me, but if they do a little half smile at me, i don't respond to that.
because... well... it's so awkward. we know that both of us just would prefer to keep walking in our respective direction.
so that little fake smile always seems weird.
and if i do attempt that fake smile, it's always kinda awkward because like i said, all you reallly wanna do is keep walking to your destination.

You're not the only one. I'm very paranoid and anxious and have similar thoughts to yourself. I don't want to diagnose you or self diagnose myself but I've suspected for some time that I may have ocd? Have you spoken to anyone in person about these thoughts?

i do have ocd, it used to be really really bad. i'm a checker, that's what my ocd is about.
so that's why i didn't really consider this specific thing being OCD.

i check if my door is locked 10 times every night, and check if the faucet is turned off before i leave the house.
but it can get very obsessive and checking it abnormally much.