I’m wondering if I need to be here

[Bruces]

I'm wondering why I need to go through the reputation of life anymore?

 

[autumnal]

I'm wondering why I need to go through the reputation of life anymore?

That's a pretty broad statement. Can you provide any more detail of what exactly you mean?

 

[Csmith8827]

I think he meant *Repetition.

And yeah your kinda right.

I basically hate everything but i'm still breathing.
It doesn't make sense.

I wish our brains would just auto shutdown when they sensed we were tired of life/existence/ whatever.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

It does get exhausting. When the joy is gone in life you start to question why the routine you're in is even needed and whether anything is being gained from living. For me that is generally where suicidal thoughts stem from.

 

[TAW122]

I think (pardon me if I'm too broad with my answer) it is because almost all humans just exist and go through the motions of life without really questioning purpose, meaning, or even thinking about all the negative shit that goes on in the world. Another reason could be that (especially for people who made up their mind, have a plan, a method, and a date set) they are just going through with the motions as to not alarm or set off red flags with the people around them. They do not want to tip people off which would ruin their plan and attempt when their time comes. I know that once I made my decision that I will CTB, the last thing I ever want is to get saved and forced to live a life that I don't want to live, therefore, I keep quiet and wait until my time & opportunity arrives.