Randy Savage
“Macho Man”
- Jul 23, 2024
- 47
i don't know if i can do it anymore. im exhausted. im tired of my ugly face. im tired of my ugly hair. i'm tired of wishing that i was born as a girl. and im tired of the endless stream of school and work that i pretend to care about.
every single day of my life is lived as a miserable, incompetent, hideous, jealous, lazy, and selfish person that nobody can tolerate. i haven't had a real friend in years and ive never felt the touch of another person. my entire life is a monument to my loneliness and ugliness.
i don't know how long i can keep this up. it's been years of fighting off the urge to shoot myself in the temple at this point and the only thing that provides me emotional relief is planning my suicide. as the days go by, i feel myself more attached to the thought of myself dying than i am to living.
i can't do it anymore. i can't do anymore tearful breakdowns in my car. I can't do anymore lonely nights. and i definitely can't do any more being abandoned because of how hideous i look.
some day soon im going to put the jealousy and evil that lives in my heart to rest for good. i will rest easy then
every single day of my life is lived as a miserable, incompetent, hideous, jealous, lazy, and selfish person that nobody can tolerate. i haven't had a real friend in years and ive never felt the touch of another person. my entire life is a monument to my loneliness and ugliness.
i don't know how long i can keep this up. it's been years of fighting off the urge to shoot myself in the temple at this point and the only thing that provides me emotional relief is planning my suicide. as the days go by, i feel myself more attached to the thought of myself dying than i am to living.
i can't do it anymore. i can't do anymore tearful breakdowns in my car. I can't do anymore lonely nights. and i definitely can't do any more being abandoned because of how hideous i look.
some day soon im going to put the jealousy and evil that lives in my heart to rest for good. i will rest easy then
