I'm tired of having to hide how I feel

[CoolGuy9]

90% of the time when I want someone to just shoot me, I can't say anything. Just pretend everything is fine and no one will know. It makes me feel alone and hopeless, but telling people would make it worse so it's better to suffer in silence. Nobody can help me anyway.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

90% of the time when I want someone to just shoot me, I can't say anything. Just pretend everything is fine and no one will know. It makes me feel alone and hopeless, but telling people would make it worse so it's better to suffer in silence. Nobody can help me anyway.

This. First they (family, "friends," public health "experts") tell you to be open, honest. Reach out. Talk to somebody. God forbid you follow their advice. Either the other person treats you like a communicable disease or they lock you up for not feeling and thinking the way they approve of.

 

[CoolGuy9]

At least I got this place so I can show how I really feel.
At the moment I want to cry, because everything sucks and I'm such a failure, but all I can do is suffer in silence in my room.

 

[Randomgin]

It's difficult to suffer with this. Because on one end, people try to help you and can't, and it makes you feel shitty for being uncurable. And on the other hand, people don't try to help you, making you feel shitty and that noone cares to even at least try to help.

 

[CoolGuy9]

It's difficult to suffer with this. Because on one end, people try to help you and can't, and it makes you feel shitty for being uncurable. And on the other hand, people don't try to help you, making you feel shitty and that noone cares to even at least try to help.

Painfully true. There are victors and losers and no matter what, I'm a loser.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it can be tiring appearing a certain way around others. I always hide how I feel from others in real life as it would do no good to open up. I am the type of person who keeps things to themselves anyway. They would never understand and there is nothing they can do anyway.

 

[Makko]

I enjoy keeping secrets. This is just one of many. The less people know of me, the better I get along with them.

 

[ClownMe]

It's so annoying, i hate how i have to put on an act around people.