I’m stuck!!!

[Eden2k]

I'm sat on the floor in my bathroom.
It's now after nine Fifty in the evening. Probably be later, by the time I've finished this friggin post.
I'm in two minds wether to leave the house, jump on the bus and head to the viaduct.
But what if I don't jump immediately? Is that survival instincts I keep reading about?
It's all crazy.
I want to be somewhere comfortable, like I've planned. I tend not to impulsive. Well not usually.
I feel jittery, I need to pace around.
I feel that I'm being rushed, but from myself.

 

[Crest33]

I'm sat on the floor in my bathroom.
It's now after nine Fifty in the evening. Probably be later, by the time I've finished this friggin post.
I'm in two minds wether to leave the house, jump on the bus and head to the viaduct.
But what if I don't jump immediately? Is that survival instincts I keep reading about?
It's all crazy.
I want to be somewhere comfortable, like I've planned. I tend not to impulsive. Well not usually.
I feel jittery, I need to pace around.
I feel that I'm being rushed, but from myself.

Please don't rush it. Take your time. Go for a walk. Browse on this forum. Plan your next attempt or watch a movie.

But do not rush your attempt.

 

[TiredHorse]

Yeah, that sounds like survival instinct. It's a bitch.

It's a hard decision, whether to ctb impulsively or methodically. If you're in any doubt, though, Crest33 is right: don't rush it.

I know that jittery feeling too well. Some days I spend hours walking around my living room, unable to sit still. It's awful. I'm really, really sorry you're fighting it, too.

I hope some sense of calm returns.