Venting I'm stuck here and it's terrifying

[Sanva]

no access to any good methods, everything is restricted in my country. I need a way out, this is fucking unbearable. I'm about to try something stupid. Last time i used painkillers i did almost succeed. I know i'll end up in agonizing pain and whatever but I just can't fucking go on.

I'm alone all the time, I don't go outside much. No one to talk to, no friends. I'm fucking broken inside and I just want a way out of this for fuck's sake. Why is it that the same people that always make me feel so broken and defective tell me I have to go on living. It won't affect anyone if i die, I'm sorry for my family but the truth is I have nothing of value to give to them anyway. There's no one else who cares about me. I just need the pain to end.

 

[Someone123]

no access to any good methods, everything is restricted in my country. I need a way out, this is fucking unbearable. I'm about to try something stupid. Last time i used painkillers i did almost succeed. I know i'll end up in agonizing pain and whatever but I just can't fucking go on.

I'm alone all the time, I don't go outside much. No one to talk to, no friends. I'm fucking broken inside and I just want a way out of this for fuck's sake. Why is it that the same people that always make me feel so broken and defective tell me I have to go on living. It won't affect anyone if i die, I'm sorry for my family but the truth is I have nothing of value to give to them anyway. There's no one else who cares about me. I just need the pain to end.

I am sure you have a lot to offer to some people, but when you're surrounded by people who don't care enough it's not easy tg see.

 

[rationaltake]

I understand. Nobody should be in this awful situation. Please don't do anything on impulse. So sorry.

 

[Death is beautiful]

no access to any good methods, everything is restricted in my country. I need a way out, this is fucking unbearable. I'm about to try something stupid. Last time i used painkillers i did almost succeed. I know i'll end up in agonizing pain and whatever but I just can't fucking go on.

I'm alone all the time, I don't go outside much. No one to talk to, no friends. I'm fucking broken inside and I just want a way out of this for fuck's sake. Why is it that the same people that always make me feel so broken and defective tell me I have to go on living. It won't affect anyone if i die, I'm sorry for my family but the truth is I have nothing of value to give to them anyway. There's no one else who cares about me. I just need the pain to end.

I had exactly the same thoughts until I started planning my suicide, is there no way to order a SN in your country? It is cheap and reliable enough, personally I want to order it soon, all this relaxes me

 

[deletednumber]

I'm in the exact same position,it's horrible...horrible

 

[Sanva]

I had exactly the same thoughts until I started planning my suicide, is there no way to order a SN in your country? It is cheap and reliable enough, personally I want to order it soon, all this relaxes me

I'm pretty sure access is very restricted here in Germany, otherwise it would be my preferred method. I know what you mean, I'd feel much more calm if I knew I had a way to opt out whenever I wanted

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful, I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. Suicide really is difficult and more than anything I wish it was easier. It is cruel how the society takes away the peaceful methods and expects us to suffer for decades. I do think that if you act on impulse the method has a higher chance of failure, but I wish you the best. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.