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Mitch3ll

Mitch3ll

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Jul 4, 2024
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Well hello.

Last summer I got evicted from a relationship and was given 3 months to find a place. Living on disability and also having chronic failures in finding a home I tried applying for MaiD but ultimately got rejected because I don't have a primary health provider here in the city of Vancouver. (Thanks Vancouver Coastal Health) and also when I filled out the medical portion of the forms apparently when I did have access to health care the health professionals failed to actually chart my issues correctly. holy heck, oh right. Health Care is unionized.

Anyways I ended up getting myself a nice big bottle of nitrogen, built a bag and set it all up one day close to the end of my 90 days. I was soooo close, filled it but I forgot to exhale all the air left in my lungs and basically just filled the bag with co2 and ultimately panicked and aborted the session. I should have tried again, however I ran outta day before the "roommate" (because turns out we were never dating) was due home soon and I needed to hide all the gear so I didn't get caught and lose it all.

So now I'm living in the DTES across from tent city in a shitty house shared with 4 other low barrier men than can't even bother to clean up after themselves when they take a shit. I got access to some outreach groups and was promised help, pffft... that was back in October and well, wouldn't you know it. 4 months later still living in this nightmare. Luckily I still have my N2 setup. But I'm just not confident in using it. I want to end my inhumane and totally unnecessary suffering. Did all the right things the last 3 months in asking for help and doing the work just to be abandoned again.

I guess my question is here, my goal is to reapply for MaiD. The only access I have to VanCoastalHealth is Access and Assessment over at VGH. Can they help me with my MaiD request or will they put my into lockdown and take away what little rights and freedoms I have left ?

Is there a doctor or a group in Vancouver that are sympathetic to the cause and when all options are exhausted will help ? Like, there's no housing options for me except the street and living on PWD is ridiculous.

I just don't know what else to do.
 
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